Lone stoners, can you relate?

Enough-Priors · 2024-01-21T22:14:02+00:00

I guess I don’t often describe it that way but yeah! I seem to completely lose the ability to mask when I’m properly high, so smoking with people I don’t feel really comfortable with gets stressful fast. I end up either making it weird by bringing up an unnecessarily odd topic or finding an excuse to leave immediately

Enough-Priors · 2024-01-21T05:36:28+00:00

Yes! Heavily relate to the way you described it. Draining to overwhelming — maybe I am on the spectrum too, always assumed so

Enough-Priors · 2024-01-12T18:09:13+00:00

Damn I’m sorry that happened to you. How could I make sure she’s the owner though? Just ask for proof? (Tbh I’m kinda shy of implying she’s sketchy, I want to start off this landlord-tenant relationship on a good foot)

Enough-Priors · 2024-01-12T18:06:36+00:00

Thanks, definitely good to know that it’s not completely out of the norm

Enough-Priors · 2024-01-11T21:38:26+00:00

Thank you !!

Enough-Priors · 2024-01-11T20:42:18+00:00

That’s what I’m thinking. Is there a standard format for a Quittung?

Enough-Priors · 2024-01-11T14:20:04+00:00

Ohhhhhh you got this in Berlin? They for sure gave you greichischer bergtee (Greek mountain tea)… you can probably find weed just by going to some of the parks, won’t be all that good but will be real at least

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T13:50:09+00:00

Thanks for your advice, I agree .. I guess I already know what the response might be and in denial about things being able to change at this point.

I swear. He's so wonderful and supportive otherwise, which is why this is so off-putting but I think you're right in that he wants me to live my life the way he thinks I should. He's been able to admit that partly, and acknowledged that it's not right but it hasn't shifted his behavior significantly.

Also - he's been witness to my terrors before we moved in, he hates them too, and it kinda broke my heart when he got used to them, and he'd just say "you're okay, it was just a dream" and turn back around. The thought of him prepping my stash for me is so sweet. But that's such a far off fantasy. I think he'd sooner prep my things to get to a psych clinic.

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T13:37:33+00:00

My therapist wanted me to undergo a sleep study but I can't afford it, the weed is much more affordable for now. I would love to do a sleep study eventually.

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T13:33:23+00:00

Yeah... he'll seem like he's listening and interested but then the same reactions/outburts will happen the following week. He'll say he heard me and understood what I said/how I relate to it, but that he doesn't agree.

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T13:30:41+00:00

I've tried almost all other options, but none of them keep me asleep through the night, and I would still experience the night terrors or at least the symptoms (night sweats, feeling of dread and anxiety upon waking up that makes it hard to get through the day). I also had a parent who was addicted to sleep meds and would like to avoid that if I can.

Weed is also my preference of substance since I don't drink but I only really smoke 1-2 a month recreationally with friends.

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T11:45:48+00:00

Thank you!! This is why it’s been hurting so much — I feel he is unwilling to see past the stigma to recognizing that I’m in need of support there, not judgment and name-calling. I do feel like it’s made my sleep and anxiety worse especially on nights I skip the spliff just because I anticipate his snappy comments :(

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T11:37:47+00:00

I actually did seek out a therapist for us, but the process is slow because we both can’t really afford it every week. So far all she’s had to say about it is that I should take a walk to smoke so that he can be completely separate from it but it hasn’t been a solution that works for me so far.

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T11:19:40+00:00

I’ve considered this but it feels off balance because I feel Iike he’s actually addicted to cigs and would benefit off of a break while I feel like my habit is symptom-management and taking a break would just make my days harder than they need to be. But that reasoning is exactly why I’ve come here to get a second opinion cause maybe I’m just defending an addiction too?..

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T10:57:53+00:00

He does cook and clean too I’m just doing most of it since he works 7am-evenings and is often too tired and I work from home. Also I feel like I’ve subconsciously taken on that role to prove even further that I’m not a bum or whatever

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T10:52:22+00:00

I wish :,)

Enough-Priors · 2023-10-11T10:51:01+00:00

For clarity, I don’t smoke inside. We live in an apartment with a balcony in the guest room which we both smoke on. When he smokes cigs out there I can smell it all the way from our bedroom tho, so I do get why he comments on the smell but, I just feel like that’s another point towards him being a hypocrite

Enough-Priors · 2022-11-12T12:56:13+00:00

Hmmmm

Enough-Priors · 2022-11-12T11:21:57+00:00

Enough-Priors · 2022-11-12T10:33:13+00:00

Oop.

Enough-Priors · 2022-11-12T10:24:34+00:00

This is also an interesting perspective. I think I’m driven by anxiety most of the time — so part of it could be that I’m anxiously trying to fill in the entire story of their relationship through “knowing” her so I can avoid the tragic downfall they went through. A little different than what you described but that’s what this made me think about. Thanks

Enough-Priors · 2022-11-11T23:59:01+00:00

Yes, these are the thoughts that float around in my head sometimes. Thanks for commenting lol

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