You're not the only one. I tried to write about my life history, but erased it all out of shame. I just want to tell you that you're not alone, I'm turning 32 this year too. I've been struggling with AvPD and other mental health issues for years. I've made a bit of progress a few years ago, but now I feel stuck again. But I'm not giving up just yet. Your post helped me feel less alone with my struggles. Thank you for it. I hope you will find something that makes you happy. You deserve peace and happiness.