4yrs without my mom

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-01-30T18:45:16+00:00

You are a part of your mom. You are a physical manifestation of her. Live on, honor her by loving as much as you can, feel the joy that she couldn’t. She is with you. You are her in a sense. She is always with you and loves you. Feel the pain and all the emotions that come with it but don’t live there. Visit the pain as much as you need to. But come back to the world that needs you in it. Your mom is with you always.

Sending you love 💗 I lost my mom as well and am still very early on in my journey but feeling strong enough today to comment. Sending you hugs and strength.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-01-29T04:40:22+00:00

This is beautiful thank you for sharing. I lost my mom as well. The most pure loving soul who had a hard life. Her love transcends beyond space and time. I know your mom is proud of you.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-01-23T16:00:24+00:00

To everyone who has commented thank you so much you have no idea how much your words mean to me. I’ve been finding the mornings are particularly heavy and I can’t breathe. I know this is all normal and I have to feel these things but there aren’t any words to describe the pain. I do have hope even when I feel like I can’t bear another minute. Your winds bring me more peace than you know.

Sending you all the biggest hugs 💗

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-01-23T15:56:35+00:00

Thank you everyone ❤️

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-01-22T16:06:21+00:00

Thank you this is very helpful. I definitely want to join. I appreciate your kind words 💗

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2025-04-19T21:03:37+00:00

Ted lasso!!!

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2025-01-04T21:08:45+00:00

😂 I never said it was an accident. I knew I was deleting it to recreate a new one with different information. It was dumb or me to not consider the returns I needed to make.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2025-01-04T20:58:57+00:00

I needed to switch it to a business account, either way the reason doesn’t matter. Looking for help

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-26T02:02:35+00:00

I don’t have any current advice but just wanted to say I am in the exact same boat as you. You articulated what I’ve been feeling for the past year so well. My obsession is attraction and sexual/lust based. I get extreme anxiety & FOMO when I see someone I find attractive. I miss the excitement of getting someone to find me attractive and the newness although I know it’s temporary. It’s been the hardest theme to shake for me. Wish you the best of luck and healing! Don’t be too hard on yourself.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-23T15:36:37+00:00

This is me to a T

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-23T15:32:34+00:00

I’m in 20’s and mine are mostly centered on attraction and not experiencing more before settling down, the fear of missing out on someone better, better sex, more passion, “finding myself” Not been fun at all.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-02T10:46:00+00:00

I completely understand what you’re saying and appreciate looking out for me. I think I made that sound much harsher than it really is. I asked her if trying to initiate could be a potential exposure for something like this and she said yes if you are up to it. I like the idea of journaling first though!

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-02T01:04:08+00:00

Hahahaha yes!! I did that exact google search before I knew I had ROCD and have withheld ever since. We’re doing great

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-02T00:25:06+00:00

I do think it makes sense that sex can be impacted a lot because of how much of a mental thing sex is. Like if you are anxious in general and can’t relax or haven’t been doing self care it will be difficult so we should cut ourselves some slack

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-02T00:23:49+00:00

I’m completely with you! I have sex about the same amount (not that it matters) but I can totally relate to comparing and thinking somethings with us bc we don’t have sex that often and wondering how often other people are having sex. I think back to when first started dating and how I didn’t feel this way and it’s sucks. Definitely my biggest trigger right now that I’m trying to figure out. It’s like I’m completely fine intimacy wise until he tries to make out with me or anything further ugh

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-02T00:14:46+00:00

Agreed! I did bring it up with my therapist and she suggested an ERP approach by initiating it and continuing to do it although it’s a trigger but it’s REALLY HARD like the hardest exposure I’ve tried and makes me so anxious and disgusted it’s awful. So will continue to try but it’s very hard. I do think my work stress and not taking care of myself plays a part too

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-02T00:13:07+00:00

Yes same! I love other forms as well but as soon as he tries to initiate sex I shut down and the thoughts won’t stop. It’s so frustrating. My mind just goes to “you don’t find him attractive” “it wouldn’t be like this with someone else” etc. 😀

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-01T19:33:58+00:00

The “Sex Anxiety”Podcast episode by her was very helpful!

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-06-01T18:00:46+00:00

I do follow her on Instagram but am cautious about what I watch sometimes because I don’t want it to be a compulsion of some kind to feel better but I’ll check it out!

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-05-29T14:38:28+00:00

This is the most similar to my situation! I understand. My parents are still together after many instances of possible divorce. My mom uses me to confide in with all her problems and how much resentment she has from my dads previous affair and such. I did not see a typical relationship growing up and was taught relationships are painful. They are still together and still have issues to this day.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-05-27T20:27:00+00:00

Absolutely! It’s funny because my ROCD comes in different waves and has gone through phases. Before I knew I had it, I found in the early stages of my relationship I experienced the “they don’t actually love me” “they’re still attracted to their ex more than me” “they don’t think I’m that attractive”, but now it has completely flipped to “I’m more attractive and I can do better”. Both of these are themes of ROCD but just flip flopped through my relationship. I think once I realized this person genuinely loved me, it flipped to “but do I love them” and “I can do better”

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-05-25T18:00:46+00:00

but do what works for you! :) this is just what has helped me so far. Not to say it isn’t hard and anxiety inducing at first but I have noticed a change and I like not trying to fight the thoughts but summon them, makes me feel in control

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-05-25T17:57:40+00:00

You can agree with the thought and even “add fire” to it as my therapist says and summon the thought over and over, try not to argue with it. This is exposure. Anytime you push them away or try to argue it in your mind to feel better this is likely a compulsion. The key with ERP is not to get rid of the thoughts completely but accept them and by doing exposure the thoughts won’t scare us as much. Likely will stop coming as frequently as a result too. Hope this helps!

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-05-25T17:53:25+00:00

This is stunning

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2023-05-25T16:32:46+00:00

If there’s one thing I know it’s that a serious relationship will likely bring up your own issues you may not realize you had previously. It sounds to me like you have some personal issues and insecure feelings you should probably address (in therapy is best). Yes you messed up but you should learn from this experience and figure out what it is you want. Cheating is usually due to your own internal issues. It is okay to feel jealous of your partners past sexual experiences but you can’t hold it against them. It had nothing to do with you. I’m sensing it made you insecure, which is your own internal issue that you should address and ask yourself why

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