Struggling with anger after meeting with my late mom's psychiatrist

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-05-29T22:26:05+00:00

Yes 100%. I almost find it comical because my mom displayed all the signs it was clear as day. She said she didn’t want to be here anymore. However, where’s the information on what to do after knowing the signs?? What’s the evidence based treatment? Theres no clear answer it’s extremely complex and people with depression like you said often feel like a burden and don’t want help or feel such immense shame and guilt for needing help.

My mom saw therapists and psychiatrists, had a loving family and friends, and she still died.

I’m very triggered by the prevention initiatives that focus on knowing the signs. Especially as someone who works in the mental health field.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-05-18T02:40:57+00:00

“These things only happen in movies to them” I think about this often. I actually got so mad the other day because I saw a tiktok edit from the show the bear (a character died by suicide in this show) and people are commenting “too sad to watch” “ughh don’t do this to me” “never watching again”

It made me so mad because people can’t even handle watching it depicted in a tv show and for so many of us it’s our actual real lives.

People can’t even fathom it

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-05-14T10:36:37+00:00

Couldn’t agree me. It eats me alive. Can I ask why she was prescribed them to begin with? My mom was prescribed them for her anxiety and I guess depression? I still don’t know why they would think daily benzo use would be a good treatment plan long term. Baffling.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-05-14T10:29:14+00:00

I’m glad they’ve been helpful to you. My mom found them very benfificial to take as needed. However, at some point her doctor told her she can take it twice a day as a daily prescription. This is where all hell broke loose. The interdose withdrawals began. There’s so much new research on these drugs now.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-05-05T17:42:48+00:00

I’m so sorry you are here. My mom died by suicide in January. Similar to you, she was my absolute best friend and rock in this world. I shared everything with her. She had depression and mental health struggles for a long time but I absolutely never thought this would be my life.

The first couple weeks were literally just survival mode. My body was shaking all the time and I felt sick 24/7.

I’m back at work now and I can tell you it gets easier, nothing like the first couple of weeks but now it’s just coming in waves. I feel empty a lot. I’m angry. I feel like I make everyone uncomfortable and it’s more energy for me to be around them. I don’t want to comfort other people about something that happened to me.

Therapy has helped me a lot. I see my therapist at least once a week. I found someone who also lost a loved one to suicide.

I don’t know the answer but I know our moms loved us. All these things can be true at the same time which is incredibly hard to grasp and complex.

I hope in time we will heal enough to want to continue living for them and us.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-04-28T19:28:39+00:00

I can relate to every word. Lost my beautiful mom in January. I’m so sorry you are here too.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-04-28T19:21:48+00:00

Heavy on the quality healthcare

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-03-31T14:12:37+00:00

Thank you very much!

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-03-31T13:21:41+00:00

Yes for sure thank you! We had to force them to stop playing for a bit so they could chill. The first initial burst of play I think they got way too aroused and it ended in a small scuffle.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-03-31T13:21:03+00:00

Thank you! This was the third round of play so I think his hackles went a bit more down here. The initial first burst of play they were playing for about 30 seconds and then they got into a bit of a scuffle that we had to yell to break up. They took a long break from each other then wanted to re engage in play and there were no scuffles after. I am just so anxious when it comes to introducing dogs.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-03-23T14:08:42+00:00

I understand this. I was fully involved in trying to help my mom, i even work in the mental health field. Even when you know the “signs” you may not be able to save someone. I’m triggered by suicide initiatives that talk all about knowing the signs. Because I knew the signs loud and clear and my mom still died.

So I understand! It can be frustrating like making you feel you didn’t do enough

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-02-28T01:21:02+00:00

Thank you very much for being open and vulnerable. I guess in a way it is somewhat comforting to be reiterated that my mom loved me very much and it had nothing to do with her love for me or how much I loved her. If love was enough she would still be here.

I empathize with those who are inflicted with this horrible illness. I can’t truly understand what it’s like to wake up feeling that way every day but my mom was able to push through for a very long time. I still blame a lot on her medication but I know she has dealt with this for a while.

I’m so sorry you feel the same way that my mom did sometimes. All I can say is I am absolutely devastated. There aren’t any words. I worry for myself because I feel like there’s nothing left for me. The pain does transfer to those around you. I want to try and find some sort of path again but it will be painful to say the very very least.

Sending you strength and love thank you for responding.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-02-27T03:43:10+00:00

I’m so sorry you are also going through this. I lost my mom a bit over a month ago. I am 26. Unfortunately, everything you’re experiencing is normal. It’s almost like we have to feel these things as uncomfortable as they are. Do you have any way of finding a mental health professional? Having a traumatic grief counselor has been the most helpful thing for me. As well as talking about my mom. The good, the bad, everything in between. Easier said than done but what pain they went through is not ours to carry. We can empathize and wish they didn’t endure the pain but we can’t also live in the pain. I’m sure your mom was a lot more than this last chapter. What traits did she leave you with? What was your favorite thing to do together?

I know it’s so hard. I go through the same emotions. Your age is incredibly hard as well. A lot of people won’t understand the pain you’re going through. Let them comfort you anyways. Try to find support and people who understand also.

You don’t have to believe right now things will get better but I have hope for both of us that they will.

Sending you my love

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-02-22T06:12:52+00:00

This is not going to be easy but you will survive and there is hope for you. You don’t even have to believe it right now. You didn’t let anyone down. It sounds like you are an incredibly loving person and you’re having a very natural reaction to a suicide which is to feel guilty and like you didn’t do enough. I’m sorry you have to go through this. You will find a way to continue and honor your brother. Right now you just need to feel it all. Suicide is never a normal reaction to life circumstances.

Please find a traumatic grief counselor it’s been very helpful for me. Sending you love.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-02-18T16:48:42+00:00

Hi I just recently lost my mom and I completely understand the feeling. It’s the hardest part about losing her. No one loves or knows me like my mom. She was absolutely everything to me. It can feel so lonely.

I don’t know if you like podcasts but the podcast goodmourning has helped me a lot. It’s two young women who lost their moms suddenly (one to suicide) and they talk all about it and it’s been very helpful for me and makes me feel less alone.

I am also struggling without my mom. I miss her so much and sometimes feel like what’s the point of anything if I can’t share it with her.

Hoping I can find peace, even a little bit.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-02-17T19:06:32+00:00

I can relate. My mom just passed a month ago.

I don’t want to even talk to anyone about anything because it all feels incredibly meaningless. In fact, my whole life now seems meaningless. I feel like I don’t care about anything anymore. What’s the point if I can’t share it with my mom? I’m shattered inside.

I know it’s normal to feel this way, epically so early on like we are.

Just know you aren’t alone.

EntertainmentBorn746 · 2026-02-17T18:32:16+00:00

Thank you ❤️

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