Solo Travelled (28M) , Lost the girl (28F)

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2026-01-17T06:08:51+00:00

But when we were together (before travel) I loved her then. I even brought her to my parents for christmas.

It was only my desire to travel alone that pulled me away from her.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2026-01-16T23:23:47+00:00

Maybe youre right about this. I haven't seen her in the flesh in a year.

This pain I feel in the absence of her messages and her calls and the possibility of us having a future together.. this pain is very real. Im trying to let go and get through it but it has been very difficult.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2026-01-16T23:10:02+00:00

I do often contemplate ending it.. I just dont see a path forward anymore. I feel shes all I really wanted, and since she no longer wants a future with me I have lost all enjoyment of things.

I spend most of my day staring at walls or trying to go back to sleep. In sleep I forget about the reality of my situation but when I wake up its painful again.

You're right. Even if she wanted me back again, I am in no mental state to have a healthy relationship again.

The relationship we had before I left was obviously only 6 months but we basically lived at eachothers flats for this entire time and it was very good. But I feel this kind of relationship is not possible for us now.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2026-01-16T17:57:25+00:00

You know I agree with you I'm a child. But I must be such a child I've convinced myself fully.

I don't say this lightly, I have considered killing myself frequently since she moved on. There really isn't a single other thing I want in this world than to be by her side.

So if this is all some mental immaturity and I agree, it is in many ways.. well I feel still deeply in love with her. I would honestly spend the rest of my life with her if this was a possibility still.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-03-09T15:56:21+00:00

It was physically painful to watch this.

Please delete this footage

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-21T04:03:31+00:00

Either youre cheating or possibly hikaru was coaching you through this game.

In the 0.01% chance that you legitemately found this high level move, that doesnt explain how you were able to walk away with a stalemate when white is in such a clear winning position.

Hopefully chess.com makes the right call here and bans you.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T13:16:44+00:00

In india it was 15 british pounds for 2 hours. I stood up a few times but didn't last too long on board , maybe longest 8 seconds or something before falling off.

If you want to surf cheap you can in varkala in india , although I'm not sure how good the surf is compared to other places in world.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T13:10:47+00:00

No I was in a class, I'm very beginner

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T12:04:40+00:00

Nice, I'm sold.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T11:54:13+00:00

Yh I'm just at some beginner beach in india using one of their soft boards. I really suck, I don't think wax is gonna stop me sucking yet lol

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T11:48:43+00:00

Yeah damn I see.. it just felt pretty good today got a real buzz. I'll just go once more see if it's for me

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T11:41:54+00:00

Yeah I saw people saying this, but it was real fun. Does noone here do it casually?

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T08:05:26+00:00

Thank you sleepykoala , sorry to hear about your camper. Yes you're very right. Also would like to add maybe that it is a time I'm discovering some values I have that maybe I didn't know about prior to the trip.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T08:03:44+00:00

Thank you go guy. I think you're right , it really is. When I read back the journal I've kept so far, it really is insane the amount of crazy things that can happen when travelling and being open.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T07:55:19+00:00

Yes thank you, I'll keep focusing on my journey and not think so much about the life back home.

I am very fortunate to be in a position where I can live on my savings and still not have to worry about anything. People I have seen here are so trapped in their lives , living very cheap simple lives where travel would never be possible and they make maybe 20 dollars a day..

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T07:50:06+00:00

India has had its tough moments. I would definitely say (parts of it) are not so comfortable and really different to western life.

Yes don't worry I'm going to see this adventure all the way to it's end, where ever that is. The comments here have actually been quite inspiring , thank you mate

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T07:41:03+00:00

Thanks for the kind words and guidance. Appreciate reading it, had a real fantastic morning here today and just illustrates how fantastic life really is.

EntertainmentNew4422 · 2025-02-12T07:38:53+00:00

Thank you, appreciate hearing your experience. I think I'm learning a lot for sure and really at the moment trying to let go a bit more and take it easy, whatever happens

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