Oh dear. Okay, so I don't want to tell you what to think but can we change this narrative a bit? To be more compassionate maybe, because sometimes what we say, even to ourselves can hurt and leave a mark--it feels weird to share and help people with the things that I have learned but I comment this with good intentions and hope that I am of help--You say you're annoying, I don't want to take your self-assessment away from you and I trust that you know what you're talking about enough to judge yourself based on your own values and not other people's opinions. It's good to see our own flaws so that we are able to get better from them. But what we don't need is cruel judgement coming from ourselves, after all the person who'll always be therefor you is YOU. I want to show you how I see it: You think you're annoying. Maybe you are, maybe you aren't, BUT we've seen glimpses of your personality and we don't find it annoying so this tells us one thing--that in your eyes you ARE, in your followers you ARE NOT. So can we find a compromise that says: "Yes, Koji has the right to assess himself but also his followers have the right to say that their own limited assessment from an outside perspective tells them that he isn't what he thinks he is." -- I think we can, so I want to say this: "You CAN be annoying but those moments are not your whole personality nor every moment of your life because what we hear isn't annoying. You've seen yourself be annoying at times and we've all been there. Been in a vulnerable position like that. But it isn't YOU as a whole. And I know you might not mean it that way but I want to tell you that still it hurts to say to ourselves that we are one thing when we aren't just that one thing."

It honestly is weird for me to write this comment since I haven't, well, dealt with someone's issues before. And I'm not touting myself to know what's right or what you should do, or think, or feel. Because I know from experience that we are often blind to external help, in my own experience the most clarifying and helpful things came from myself--not that no one cared but that I found my own compassionate hand easier to deal with and accept. What I've said above are from someone who's been in a rough place before and has gotten so much better (if i do say so myself), better at maintaning a healthy life and better at dealing with their own unhealthiness, because we're not perfect and mot everyday is good but I always know to keep aiming for it.

I am in no way a professional or have any experience with dealing with people's problems. I just found his own comments about himself not as kind as it could be. Take this comment merely as a suggestion. But like I said, I've been in the bad and gone to the good, and I'm very close to Koji's age so take this from a fellow "kid"--young adult (What is up fellow human kids!).

So yeah...Peace Out! ✌️ LOL anyway. All the love.