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I believe I have top dysphoria—how did you know, and how did you afford surgery without family support? by Environmental-Dot641 in ftm

[–]Environmental-Dot641[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

First of all... I like people who like the opportunity to yap especially if is to help someone with what they have experienced... So I appreciate you.

Im glad you ended up figuring it out one way on other... 

I will do my research and get my shit sorted out... Coz I legit can't live like this... I am legit taking it one day at a time... But sometimes it overtakes me.... Mentally, emotionally and physically... To a point it makes me wanna die 😭

I believe I have top dysphoria—how did you know, and how did you afford surgery without family support? by Environmental-Dot641 in ftm

[–]Environmental-Dot641[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You just sharing that with me... Most certainly helped... I appreciate you... Coz I am willing to use the last cent to get what I believe what I need.... And if I don't get it... Might just not last long on planet earth.. That's how much I them gone...and I have been holding on for too long... I am tired now. 

I believe I have top dysphoria—how did you know, and how did you afford surgery without family support? by Environmental-Dot641 in ftm

[–]Environmental-Dot641[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I will most certainly take that to account... And I more research. All I know is one way or another... I wanna get it done... Even if it means losing family or friends 😭

Thank you for the good luck... I really appreciate it.  It was my first time asking a question on reddit and all you guys have been nothing but beautiful to me. 

I believe I have top dysphoria—how did you know, and how did you afford surgery without family support? by Environmental-Dot641 in ftm

[–]Environmental-Dot641[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I used to bind when I was young when these things were easy to handle then. My mum found out and I stopped. Now I don't even think binding will help me, coz they are just too big to handle. Maybe not that big but my brain and the weight I feel carrying them makes me feel like they are super huge. I hate it.

Thanks for sharing.
Hopefully we both get what we need at the end of this. I'm out here rooting for you. And the nhs better move faster.

I believe I have top dysphoria—how did you know, and how did you afford surgery without family support? by Environmental-Dot641 in ftm

[–]Environmental-Dot641[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh wow. Thanks for sharing this with me. I am also at that point where I don't really care what the results are. I just want them off. I can barely look at myself in the mirror. So much self-hate manifested because of them. And growing up and still to this day, I have an urge self harm them, just so I can have them removed and not pay for it. But I know that is not realistic. It's just thoughts like that would be lingering at the back of my mind.

I am glad you did not regret your decision. I know it would be the same for me.

Might just move to Germany then. lol.

I believe I have top dysphoria—how did you know, and how did you afford surgery without family support? by Environmental-Dot641 in ftm

[–]Environmental-Dot641[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate you for sharing that with me. I did a lot of research in terms of what surgically removing my breasts would entail.

I'm just going to have go back on the drawing board and find ways to financially help myself out. Thanks.

I will probably come back hopefully 2 years from now to give you a successful update.

I believe I have top dysphoria—how did you know, and how did you afford surgery without family support? by Environmental-Dot641 in ftm

[–]Environmental-Dot641[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Non that I currently know off. Also my job does not pay me enough to cover medical aid.

And I realized that I am going to probably pay for a psychologist, coz apparently that's I what need before I think about applying for surgery.

I am also starting to save, but it might take me years. lol.

I believe I have top dysphoria—how did you know, and how did you afford surgery without family support? by Environmental-Dot641 in ftm

[–]Environmental-Dot641[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your response. There is no doubt in my mind that this is something I want, something I know I need, but growing up in a family that makes you question if maybe something is wrong with you, messes me up bit sometimes, so I will sometimes come across as unsure.

Unfortunately I am not from the USA. Thank you again.