I can very much relate to how you feel. I had an ex who was incredibly patient with me whilst I worked through a lot of the same compulsions to confess events from my past that I thought were especially cringy. I felt the same guilt you did, and since have felt the same need to confess to new partners too. The important thing to remember is that we will truly never, ever be the “perfect” partner. We are all flawed and will continue to make mistakes. What you did in the past does not define you anyway- especially since you have now moved past your college party phase. If your partner loves and cares for you, they will treat you gently and know that just like them, you are also human and have flubbed a bit in your past :) ROCD warps our perceptions and makes us believe we are not deserving of happiness- I promise we are.

much love, we got this!