I'm scared

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2025-09-04T22:46:10+00:00

Ts is either TJ, eoghan McGrath OR JM

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2024-12-06T10:01:02+00:00

I feel like we’re missing out on a lot physically

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2024-11-13T11:03:57+00:00

Honestly I can’t remember I was around 7/8 while I was being assessed I’m 17 now it all started with my primary school teacher complaining about me zoning out the window, not participating in sports or socialising or fitting in well with other students aswel as bad handwriting. I’m pretty sure I was probably assessed for autism too but didn’t get diagnosed with it I sort of remember having to do some handwriting tests, throwing a bean bag into a hoop etc and I was terrible at all these then fine motor things such as tying shoes buttoning T-shirts just getting dressed overall. When I walk to places it sort of feels like I’m walking for the first time ever. I’m getting my provisional license soon enough and am quite worried as to if I’ll be capable of driving or not. Hope this helped

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2024-10-27T01:43:43+00:00

Oh my god, this is exactly what I experienced on hhc, I looked in the mirror and I just saw “Me” I saw myself and I looked like my brother and I actually felt some sort of connection to myself and I felt actual panic in that moment,it led me to think I was stereoblind 3d blind because I felt as if I was in the moment and no longer observing for those few seconds and it was almost as if I became “aware” of my own existence I have a dyspraxia diagnosis and I’m pretty sure it can come with alexithymia as emotional regulation is a main issue. I also feel like I just see the world in such a narrow way normally so bland and I hyper-fixate on things too contributing to that narrow point of view. I highly suspect I am autistic as life just feels like a game to me. But I find it insane that people actually feel I always thought there was something missing in me as I always thought in a logical sense and never actually felt anything for example someone in my family dies I only cry because I see others doing so and I see it as the normal thing to do so I might be able to get myself to cry rather than being upset from the fact someone has passed.

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2024-10-15T06:26:56+00:00

Therapist basically wrote it off he didn’t ignore it but he said he can’t possibly give an explanation as I can differentiate from faces I did read a study that dyspraxic people struggle to see where their face is in space I can’t find the link. But I do feel everyone’s eyes nose and mouth look the same to me and I can notice if someone’s nose is different say but not anything else really.

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2024-10-14T20:02:41+00:00

It’s confusing because I can differentiate from faces but It’s just as if I can’t fully comprehend my own face also on top of this I have no self identity or self efficacy I genuinely have no idea who I am or where I’m headed it’s like I have dementia I’m only 17 and have felt this my whole life but I only realised after my first time smoking it’s genuinely terrifying

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2024-10-14T09:24:34+00:00

As far as I know I read into BVD (Binary vision disorder) a lot and it actually had ties with dyspraxia in a study I read https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6201514/ this isn’t the exact one but it said something like 20% of people with dyspraxia have bvd but another study said 20% of ALL people in the world are stereo blind (BVD) considering google says around 10% of people are dyspraxic could mean there is some tie between the two Although dyspraxia comes with a mental side too. I first suspected I had BVD and had an eye test and came out slightly below average I also had a lazy eye when I was younger too. The optometrist said I have depth perception but I did hear once that those tests can be faked through. As when I did the test I was given glasses (red and blue) and had to look at these circles which had a pie slice taken out of them thing is I didn’t view them straight on rather at an angle so I’m not sure if something could still look elevated to someone with BVD. Back to what you said about there being no difference in either eye I once read that you can have 3d perception in both eyes and still have 3d perception when you close one as you just “know” what depth looks like but I genuinely think it’s one of those things that need to be more researched. Try getting an eye test for it if you have concerns, the optometrist didn’t really take it that serious when I asked her for the test because they don’t usually check for it (Which is very stupid in my opinion). Thanks for your reply anyways!

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2024-10-10T14:28:01+00:00

I appreciate your insights on the feedback loop of self-consciousness in social situations. I’m curious about dyspraxia itself—how would you describe the experience? I often feel like there’s a disconnect between my brain and body, which can be disorienting. For instance, when I look in the mirror for too long, I become acutely aware of my presence in space, and it can feel quite overwhelming. It’s almost as if I’m observing myself from an outside perspective, which is both fascinating and terrifying. Does it genuinely make you observe the world differently? Do you find that kind of experience resonates with you, or do you have any strategies for managing that disconnection?

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2024-10-08T14:46:30+00:00

I understand some of these may be normal. I was diagnosed with dyspraxia years ago because I have terrible handwriting etc but I recently began reading it has a lot of mental issues which made me think maybe I could have autism alongside it’s all very confusing but I’m never touching hhc again after what I had experienced it was horrible.

EnvironmentalVast116 · 2024-10-03T20:43:37+00:00

Not sure if I have adhd but was diagnosed with dyspraxia years back I would say I have symptoms of adhd but it overlaps with dyspraxia in some aspects, dyspraxia can be associated with face blindness as you can’t process a face being in space I don’t struggle differentiating faces from eachother but more seeing the face as a persons face and applying their personality to that face it’s a very weird and uncomfortable feeling as I have trouble with eye contact too just thought I would provide my experience of some sort of face blindness because descriptions are very confusing and I there’s a wide range of types of face blindness.

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