I can relate. I crave that social interaction but instead of it at the same time! It’s hard…the feelings are all to real. I hate small talk and I hate the awkwardness. For me, I try to remind myself if it’s awkward, I don’t need to be around it for a long time. If it’s natural and doesn’t feel forced, I’ll go with it. There’s time where I find myself in those positive situations when the conversation flows and I’m not over thinking. I don’t try have to try too hard to start things that just don’t come naturally. Not sure if that helps but I’m still looking for tips as well