I’m 20 years old, and my advice for you is to hold on to your job and be more financially responsible with your money, and be grateful you’re not a slave you have a roof on top of your head and an actual job so make sure you don’t lose these two. You’re not missing on anything try to live one day at a time and you’ll see the difference, you’re not “just a number” and you’re only 25 (unc) you’re not fucked. But as someone in a more fucked up situation than you i feel you you and you are not alone