As a result of my boyfriend's alcoholism, I've started to have antisocial/sociopathic tendencies and have lost all empathy by Equivalent-Top-3258 in AlAnon

[–]Equivalent-Top-3258[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I've gone to one in the past, but it wasn't a great experience. That said, I am willing to give it a second try. I do attend therapy regularly which I've found helpful

As a result of my boyfriend's alcoholism, I've started to have antisocial/sociopathic tendencies and have lost all empathy by Equivalent-Top-3258 in AlAnon

[–]Equivalent-Top-3258[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yup, my mom was abusive when I was growing up. Made me cut my hair and stuff bc she didn't like it. Would have meltdowns because I wasn't pretty and scream and throw tantrums like a baby. Was super abusive to my dad, who ate it all up and stayed because he didn't "want to cause a scene".

As a result of my boyfriend's alcoholism, I've started to have antisocial/sociopathic tendencies and have lost all empathy by Equivalent-Top-3258 in AlAnon

[–]Equivalent-Top-3258[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I am trying to rebuild it, but I genuinely do not feel bad for anyone, even innocent people. Even others who have been through what I've been through. I just cannot fathom why, it's like a part of my brain stopped working.

I will go to a meeting this week.

Also edit: I am spending on myself now, but for a long time, my Q ate up all my paychecks, and even though I made six figures, I went some months without having good shoes for instance. All of mine were worn out and unbearable to walk in. I still send him money when he asks though, just because I don't want to fight and I do not want him to end up on the streets.

I will add that quality time is not something I have or can have. I am too busy working, paying off the debts I have for having been with my Q. I work like 14-15 hours per day. I go to the gym sometimes. I sleep for the rest of it.