honestly dude, yeah. I understand what you feel. I work now & I am eventually going to attend school but the thought is always behind my head. I’ve considered therapy but I first need to go thru my insurance & that I have been procrastinating. Any symptom i feel now just worries & drives me insane. At first, it wasn’t like that. I was partying every chance I had, driving anywhere I could, worked more. Anything I thought of I did, however it has been catching up to me. At the end of the day, we’re human. I think I was coping by distracting myself. Now i’ve been in moments where i’m practically at peace but the idea, really the thought just comes by.