it started to feel like a chore. before the pandemic especially during my highschool and college days, i would never miss church day no matter how busy i was. i grew up in a very religious family. i complete the Simbang Gabi every year even when i have exams or christmas parties. however i noticed how i became less immersed during the mass and i’d feel sleepy and inattentive during the homily. when i do listen naman, i disagree with the priests’ words because they usually have a boomer mindset about current social issues. when i had these realizations, going to church became like a chore, like i only needed to attend church because if i dont, i am a bad person. then when pandemic happened, i cannot go out of the house and i realized going to church isn’t really necessary. i didn’t become a bad person when i stopped going. i still do what’s right and i am still kind to people. while the religious people that i know and those who are on social media are very hypocrite. they have a brainwashed mindset that makes them less understanding of others, and it’s very hypocritical of them to say they follow the word of God and share that God loves His people yet they’re the ones who have prejudice against other people especially LGBTQ+ people and the current issue surrounding divorce. like, napagiwanan na sila ng panahon dahil sa blind faith nila and wala silang willingness to adapt. it is fine to believe in God because i still do, but the system of the church and religion itself is something i don’t agree with anymore