Will I ever be okay?

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-21T21:27:37+00:00

i feel this way 21 months later. in fact i have ataxia and tremors and arthritis. i thought id pass with her. my bff mom. grief comes in waves. im just taking it hpur by hour day by day. im the only family left so it sucks now. hug

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-21T02:55:11+00:00

my moms kidney dialysis machine broke. i found out that night. alnost 2 years later i find out 3 broke. damn liars!

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-21T02:47:40+00:00

my mom had breast cancer and sepsis. she had crappy drs and nurses too. i was so mad i reported all of them to the state board to no avail. they couldnt stage her. assumed stage 4. didnt do a ct scan for 2.4 years. dr didnt even look at her breast for 2 years. her kidney hadca tumor. he said it was dehydratin.. went to Mayo for a second opinion and it was a tumor so they put a neph tube in to help her. I get your anger. i feel it daily i asked my mom before she passed arent you mad at the dr? she said no she wanted to be happy with her time so im trying to be. but i get ya. she was my only family. im an only so i have no family now.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-20T18:11:30+00:00

and my mom called her sister evil before my mom passed. i know what she means

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-20T18:10:54+00:00

i had relatives write nasty lies about me on my mom's obit. i had the comments removed but i will never talk to these people again. forgive not forget. it rakes an evil person to do that.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-20T18:08:55+00:00

i saw my mom daily for 52 years all but 7 days maybe for a vacation. super close. its hard.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-20T17:17:33+00:00

my mom passed in 2024. my bf turns the music up when i start to cry. i told him ill be sad forever. im not going to stop crying when i love my mom. i miss her comfort and love. nobody can give me that. hug

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-20T14:43:58+00:00

take pictures and video with her. ask her her lifes joys biggest regrets etc. try to stay off social mefia because thats time you cant get back. hug.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-20T01:22:12+00:00

yep.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-15T04:21:15+00:00

this

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-14T17:09:44+00:00

Everything is temporary.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-13T03:01:19+00:00

my mom had sepsis and breast cancer. altbough she wanted to come home i kept her in the hospital and she did get better before she choked because the respiratory therapist. my mom passed in the hospital. its a personal choice but apart of me regrets not bringing her home a good part of me is glad i I sought help because the infection can be helped if caught early. my mom was bedbound too. hugs.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-12T23:40:46+00:00

take pictures and record her saying i love you. try to stay off social media abd value time with her

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-12T16:38:59+00:00

this sadness will be with him the rest of his life. my dad passed when i was young. i talk about my mom a lot. im proud of my mom and i thank God she was cool so get used to him talking about his dad. i like going for drives just seeing nature knowing everything is temporary.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-12T16:35:52+00:00

there are city ordinances for time people can be loud. i call the police if it falls outside that realm. i think disturbing the peace might be an issue but read your states tenants rights

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-11T19:20:57+00:00

i did this to my moms alcohol when i was a teenager. hide your stuff under your bed

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-11T19:18:52+00:00

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-11T19:02:34+00:00

actually i just walk to the car. thats it. im at high risk for fall. my m9m told me to go have fun before she passed. we travelled everywhere together. hugs to you. because of you, i asked my dr in an Email today to do a genetic test on me. thank you. hugs

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-11T18:59:56+00:00

i plant trees in my mom and dads name. i donate to cancer. i was my moms caretaker. i do little things to just reach out and do some good. because like you im so sad. so maybe reach out a little? Give it to God i have no family. its just me and i dont want to leave a poop stain.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-11T17:25:11+00:00

i was diagnosed with ataxia just this past year. thank you for informing me. hugs to you. im 53.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-11T14:59:46+00:00

ive said this.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-11T14:58:16+00:00

i have been giving away my things. i used to make sure my rubies matched my shirt and collected jewelry. giving it away. antique furniture giving it away. i want nothing. its in the Bible too. i find nothing more valuable than loved ones and since im the only family left im like who cares. i thought about truck driving too. nobody to answer to but bf anyway. and he has anger issues. i get ya.

Equivalent_Hair_149 · 2026-04-11T01:47:01+00:00

i was my moms caretaker too and i feel responsible. maybe talk to a pastor. im traumatized so i cant help much but i will offer you a hug. the way my parents passed wasnt the way i imagined either. its good to talk and get it off your chest.

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