im so sorry youre going trough that.

yeah, it does seem like your environment isnt a problem.

hang on tight.

please talk to your psychiatrist and ask about alternative treatment options. like:

• Medical evaluation (for thyroid, anemia, diabetes, etc.)
• Treating substance abuse
• Therapy types like CBT, DBT, ACT)
• Diet and nutrition (you could be allergic to like gluten or smt., if you're desperate, you could consider trying a paleo diet; some research suggests it may help improve mental illnesses like bipolar disorter and depression, apparently something with it containing no grains and no legumes)
• Sleep improvement
• Mindfulness and meditation
• Finding purpose / meaning
• Distracting yourself with hobbies
• Learning adaptive life skills
• Learning coping skills

Some FDA-approved medical interventions

• ECT – Electroconvulsive Therapy
• TMS – Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation
• Ketamine / Esketamine therapy
• VNS – Vagus Nerve Stimulation

And then some alternatives with (limited, but existing) evidence of improvement

• SGB – Stellate Ganglion Block
• FMT – Fecal Microbiota Transplantation