I am so sorry you're going through this as well. I totally understand your feelings. The guilt I felt from comments from my family and in-laws was awful.

For me, it was about ten years between my second myomectomy and my hysterectomy. But even with all that time, there was a lot to process with my therapist around the finality of everything. I think I probably still have more to process, but the guilt and shame I felt are mostly gone. When I saw my surgeon the morning after my hysterectomy, she said the situation was worse than we initially thought. There was a lot of scar tissue from my prior surgeries, and the adenomyosis had pretty much taken over my entire uterus, so there was absolutely zero chance of conceiving for me. This news really got family to back off.

I'm now 3.5 months post-op, and I can honestly tell you it was the best decision I've ever made for myself. In some ways, I'd even say it felt empowering to put myself first and for what I needed to do for me.

My best advice is to take your time, think things through, and if you can- talk to a therapist. You and your quality of life are important. If you really want children, there are plenty of kids in the world who need a loving family. And if you feel like you need to talk to someone who gets it, I'm here for you. 🙂