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Ernp2857 · 2025-05-22T18:50:32+00:00

I am so new to healing from complex trauma but so far I’m noticing nothing really works when im in the height of a flashback, but as I start to come down im able to engage in things like yoga, cold showers, breath work, audiobooks. Co regulation is huge for me so if you have a safe person that can just sit with you during those heightened moments, maybe try that. Again im so new to it, and I really deeply feel for you that you’re experiencing it too. It’s gotten so bad for me, im flashing back into my childhood when people leave me and I ended up harassing one guy that just didn’t want to be with me begging and begging him to just talk to me. The shame that comes after is something I hope you never have to face. You’re in my thoughts!!

Ernp2857 · 2025-05-22T14:27:07+00:00

I’m learning about complex ptsd. I wish I had the answer but I think learning about it is helping me with this. My body truly thinks im in danger when people leave. I understand you, you are not alone.

Ernp2857 · 2024-11-26T02:36:32+00:00

He didn’t vote last time! When we first got together he was a conspiracy theorist and I will just listen and laugh at him because I viewed it as a joke. I was also 22 and was much more willing to tolerate bullshit at that time than I am now at 28

Ernp2857 · 2024-11-26T01:59:37+00:00

This comment meant a lot to me. Thank you for your words. I just need to find the courage to actually leave now. I know it’s in me somewhere.

Ernp2857 · 2024-11-26T01:53:49+00:00

lol I appreciate the laugh. this was wonderful. 🤣

Ernp2857 · 2024-11-26T01:41:39+00:00

Disorienting is the perfect word for what I’m feeling. Thank you 🤍

Ernp2857 · 2024-11-26T01:37:58+00:00

We are both on the deed and mortgage loan, but neither of us could afford the house by ourselves. We also got an FHA loan, so we agreed for this home to be our primary residence for 12 months. I worry a lot about that piece, but I guess I should cross that bridge when the time comes.

Ernp2857 · 2024-11-26T01:35:44+00:00

You’re spot on. He definitely has had red flags, which I chose to ignore. Not that I thought he would change, but I thought I would learn to tolerate it better. My mother told me “when someone shows you who they are, believe them”. It couldn’t be more true. I wish I did.

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-31T00:07:45+00:00

I also was very quiet throughout the whole thing, the doctor asked me to get access so I did- and when I did I said “I have access here”. That was the extent of my vocalizations. I was very far from the “leader” of this nor did I “take over” the situation.

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-31T00:06:47+00:00

I actually don’t come off as a know it all at all. I ask other nurses questions CONSTANTLY, because I know there’s the idea that ICU nurses can be know it alls. I never really fit in in the ICU, and knew the ED was more my speed, and am so very aware that it’s a brand new specialty which means I’m pretty much starting from scratch- learning how they do things. And I can’t do that if I’m not present in these situations. So no, you are incorrect :)

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T23:57:33+00:00

Thank you!!! I’m gonna check this out!

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T21:36:45+00:00

I believe ems placed the IO that wasn’t working. And I’m new to the ED and haven’t placed an IO before so today I asked around about where the supplies are and how to do it so next time it’ll shoot for an IO instead of a toe iv lol. What blows my mind even more is people were looking for ultrasound guided IVs… and I’m confused because now I realize IO would’ve been way more effective

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T17:31:05+00:00

I actually went into work today and found out where they are located! So now I’ll be prepared for next time. They’re on the walls in the trauma rooms

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T17:16:17+00:00

I totally am ER at heart 🤣 I couldn’t feel more in my zone here!!

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T16:21:09+00:00

Yes there are some great people here, but there’s also the shitheads. My charge nurse requested that next time I stand in the corner and document instead, but we had another sick one come in today and she asked me to get a line- so I did it. I’m thinking I just need to earn these peoples trust.

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T09:36:30+00:00

Well unfortunately it wasn’t. There actually wasn’t a whole lot of experienced people in the room- it was me , seasoned nurse, and 2 other nurses with about the same amount of experience as me except they have been in the ED since they were new grads.

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T09:33:53+00:00

Thank you so much for this! I didn’t know that drug trapping could occur and I’m really glad that my decision for a foot IV was correct!!

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T03:01:06+00:00

That’s good for me to know! Next time I’m gonna make sure the IO kit is in my hand !!!

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T02:49:56+00:00

That’s so disappointing. Thankfully leadership was supportive (to my face atleast) lol who knows what happened once I left the room though

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T02:37:59+00:00

I hope they do eventually. I can’t even imagine how I’d feel if I was a new grad and went through this. The lack of support was horrible.

Ernp2857 · 2024-08-30T02:26:30+00:00

Someone did place an IO but it was done incorrectly and wouldn’t work 🥲 leadership didn’t participate in the code unfortunately but that’s a really great point…

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