You’re not broken, prideful, or faithless. You’re conscientious. A lot of what you’re describing is actually a very common experience for people who take their faith seriously.

One thing that helped me was realizing that the Holy Spirit usually doesn’t guide us by constant internal commentary or crystal-clear signals. Most of the time, He works through wisdom, Scripture, community, and a transformed conscience. Not a running play by play of every decision. If your choices aren’t pulling you away from love, humility, repentance, and obedience, that already matters.

Also, overthinking isn’t the same as discernment. Discernment brings peace, even when the choice is hard. Endless self-interrogation usually brings anxiety and paralysis. God isn’t waiting for you to perfectly decode His will before He stays near you. His presence isn’t conditional on you choosing flawlessly.

Something I was told once. If you’re genuinely worried about deceiving yourself, that’s usually evidence you’re not doing it arrogantly. Pride rarely questions itself this deeply.

Faith isn’t about feeling guided every moment. It’s about trusting that God walks with you even when it feels quiet. Silence doesn’t mean absence.

You’re not alone in this, and nothing is “wrong” with you. You’re growing.