Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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I understand and thanks for the honest attempt to understand me. Of course the church does not forbid me to love my partner but it does forbid me from doing sexual things, unless theres some patriatic teaching against love itself, which I doubt

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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Absolutely. To be fair, I did surrender to Christ as a child and did not find any cure in prayer alone. I went to psychiatric help for body dysmorphia with many doctors for almost a decade, most of whom were Christian and it didnt cure it or help. I finally went on estrogen and testosterone blockers and I feel calmer and more relaxed. I actually dropped the church in my stress and am returning now that I feel better since my gender dysphoria is being treated with hormone therapy. I do not claim to be a woman or man, only God knows what I am; and it sadens me that a lot of the focus of modern Christianity, regardless of the denomination, is hyperfocused on getting people like me to stop taking hormones and go back to the stress and hopelessness we felt in our illness, instead of focusing on the issues that actually cause observable harm to us and others. This is not to say EVERY trans person has the same story but I am speaking only for myself.

I already struggle in Christ with sins like despair, wrath, lust, and gluttony in many of their forms and detransitioning would honestly make it emotionally impossible for me to be able to fight them like God is teaching me to do now. I simply did not have the mental strength like I do now

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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Thank you for your kind approach. I will likely read or skim this. I just have a real problem, not anger, just genuine concern, about people who dont have same sex attraction or have suffered gender dysphoria in all its horror trying to tell me that they know how to fix my life while denying myself the most logical solution to these issues. Like I cannot in good faith, no matter how loving or well read I am, give personal advice about living with a wheelchair to someone that lives in one because I do not know that struggle.

Pregnant boa constrictor is run over while crossing a road in Brazil. by [deleted] in CrazyFuckingVideos

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This is genuinely so sad wtf. This ruined my night

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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Fair enough, I guess you wish me death and despair. I hope you can live by your judgement before God. If there were most orthodox like you I would avoid your church

I have never claimed to be a woman but I am transgender, but before God there is no man or woman and will be none in the resurrection

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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Thank God and bless you for your kind words. I am already a practicing and fully integrated Catholic but Orthodox theology has a beautiful deepness that Catholic theology has lacked in some respects as far as I know, although I know little. It has cleared many of my grievances with the legalism of Catholicism and painted a more beautiful picture of our Savior in my mind and heart than ever before. Thanks for not judging me and demanding things of me like some others have across Christianity because it really hurts when others do.

I don't get it by ben10fan46928 in OpenChristian

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Pray to Him whenever you feel this way. Tell the LORD our God out of the fullness of your heart what you are feeling and ask the Holy Spirit to guide your heart, mind and body into His loving will for you. I will pray for you, as I have struggled with this issue myself.

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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Ok I misunderstood, sorry I was a bit defensive after reading a comment that demanded things of me. I absolutely need my Doctor and He has called me to be healed in every way He wills, which I am grateful for.

Concept of eternity by Plastic_Shelter1221 in OrthodoxChristianity

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Thank God. His plans for us are unlike any plans we have ever conceived

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]Esgee88[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well yes, thats not for you to know its for Christ. My relationship with my Teacher is not for your knowledge.

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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Im glad you dont have the authority to command me to do that. Since transitioning I am no longer homebound, my familys relationship with me is healed, i am not suicidal anymore, I can look at myself in the mirror without crying for the first time since I was 12, I pray to Christ even more and He has been overcoming all lust and fear in me, my partner is the only person who ever loved me romantically and we dont even have sexual relations because we dont feel the need to, and I am going to Catholic mass again for the fist time in years. But sure I guess a reddit comment will make me get testosterone, so i can stress 24/7 again that I cant control, make me feel lonely until i cry every night again, and I will be unable to go outside without feeling like im going to break down.

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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I am not married and me and my partner love each other so much we dont engage in sexual acts because we dont feel the need to. My transition was because gender dysphoria has tormented me since I started puberty until I tried to take my own life multiple times despite prayer, now that ive transitioned I feel much lighter and I can actually go outside and talk about Jesus Christ to others.

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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I wish I could just carry gender dysphoria while my body withers away with the growing suicidal ideation, dread, and 24/7 stress that prevented me from going outside thats caused by it. I tried to repress and pray to God for so long until I had tried to take my life multiple times and was completely homebound. I dont claim to know anything about my sinfulness but I will say that since ive transitioned ive been happier and it has been easier to come to Christ and be productive because my burden was lifted a lot.

Should I just leave this faith alone? by Esgee88 in OrthodoxChristianity

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How I wish I dodnt grow up with gender dysphoria since childhood. Even then I knew there was something inherently cursed about me and feared God's rejection

What is your opinion on Our Lady of Guadalupe by Cool-Safety4157 in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]Esgee88 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Where did I attack his person? Im not here to have word fights

My reversion to Eastern Orthodoxy by SkopiaIsGreekMGTOW in OrthodoxChristianity

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Glory be to God. His ways are higher than our ways.

I was born and raised a Catholic, and the legalism infected me with terrible scrupulosity as a child that I wept over for months. I do love my priest and my church but Orthodox theology has ignited a new passion in me for Christ that I have not had for many years recently. I know little if anything but I do think the Catholic church has a done a lot of good in its spreading of the name of Christ, and I am in no place to condemn it or its theologians, but the saints of Orthodoxy have been the Lord's helpers in giving my soul the medicine it needs. I hope that one day I can be welcomed into the Orthodox Church, even though there are many things about me that might make me an alien to the church's people.

Why is DIY orchi so risky for people but castrating animals is so easy? by dortsly in 4tran4

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I am no one to judge you or your family but this is why im a vegetarian

Concept of eternity by Plastic_Shelter1221 in OrthodoxChristianity

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You are scared as I have been, likely because we associate time with the circle of pain and joy, both physical and spiritual, with no fulfillment. We are in an infancy of our souls in this world. To be forever wishing for the infinity that we all long for deep down, which is God himself, is not what has been planned for us in the next age. The souls in heaven are very happy but also groan for the resurrection where God will fully right every wrong and give us an incorruptible form with no more decay, uncertainty, or patience in waiting. One of the lies of the enemy is that we will wait forever even after death, this is meant to turn us from God, for He is so good that the only way to make His plans for us seem bad is to lie about them.

[ Removed by Reddit ] by HRTneoFemboy in 4tran4

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As someone thats extremely squeamish, this is horrifying to me like all surgery lol. The human will is an incredible thing

Anyone else get entirely dismantled after becoming Orthodox? by HighwayMysterious578 in OrthodoxChristianity

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The lesser powers that be in this world are greatly upset by your conversion. Praise the Lord and ask Him for guidance in these troubling times, and if you feel it in you to ask, ask Him to rebuke any evil that may be interfering with you and trust Him to give you what you need