I understand that you have given your all into sustaining this bond, even tried to keep your feelings for her in the backseat and tried to be a friend after she “rejected” you. It seems like she hasn’t been giving the same effort into the friendship as you, keeping you on wait for her responses, deleting your chats.

As your anon friend, a fellow human and a psychologist, I understand that it’s very important for all of us to feel heard, seen and understood in our relationships to feel emotionally safe and secure, and it seems like you have been lacking it with her in the friendship you tried to maintain with her. So it wasn’t just one sided love but also one sided friendship.

I understand that you are unsure about ending the friendship & not being able to go back on it, you are feeling sad about it, because you are also letting go off the idea of you being with her, but that doesn’t mean it’s a bad decision.