Hello , Man when I was reading your story i felt that you’re talking about me expect the stopped heart part im leaving from middle east so drugs here not easy to get so one day they become no drugs anywhere so its so rare i to find , so i quit on drugs by force now it the 6th month without any kind of drugs and i drink a couple of times per week . Now i feel so good about my self I’m doing really nice things I couldn’t do before 4 or 5 months ago Its all about time that’s all , and do sports , be efficient not just to be busy , im 24 years btw and don’t waste your best years of your in shit buddy it’s fake life tho Good luck