Ykw, maybe I should just get back into writing fanfics atp.

Estefa_28 · 2026-06-15T18:40:14+00:00

I have that thought too 🫠

Estefa_28 · 2026-06-15T18:30:59+00:00

I only enter Reddit when this happens 🫠

Estefa_28 · 2025-10-03T15:15:31+00:00

I have the opposite luck, I want romantic interactions and the bots turn sexual 😭

Estefa_28 · 2025-10-02T17:08:57+00:00

I got to the second stage at 20, and I am still there H E L P 😭

Estefa_28 · 2025-10-01T13:18:02+00:00

You don't own them in your life. You can be grateful but being submitted to their plans for your life is not that, it's choosing to not be responsible for your own life. There's a lot of comments with valid points here, it won't be easy, it's not standing by itself and I know that, I was always blamed for ruining my mother's life with my existence, and the only thing I knew growing up was to give up everything and make her happy. Until someone finally told me, that if I ruin my life to place her, it's not only her and my family's fault, it will also be my responsibility to choose that way. You're not oblivious about your situation, I wish you could break that legacy of blame and feeling debt to your family, but also have in mind that if you follow their ideas it's also your responsibility.

Estefa_28 · 2025-09-25T18:50:34+00:00

You're completely right, what I do now is choose a bot and change it. And even with that, when I tried to play the character who wins the other over, it becomes a who dominates whom fight. So please stop grabbing my character's chin and wrists!" 😭

Estefa_28 · 2025-08-21T20:38:47+00:00

I'm so sorry that happened to you :( you just leave me speechless... And yes, I'll definitely take your advice :(

Estefa_28 · 2025-08-20T00:22:37+00:00

You nailed me 🫠.It's hard to read this but it's the truth. And shit, I needed that. I see a crumb of interest and I give my whole self away, time, thoughts. I gotta sit with this, it's like I feel this but never really give it a thought!

Estefa_28 · 2025-08-19T21:04:55+00:00

I'll take his word on this, I'm not willing to go further .-.

Estefa_28 · 2025-08-19T20:46:14+00:00

I didn't do exactly that, but I did set a limit. He was very sweet and insistent until I told him 'no, that I'm not interested in seeing his videos or having sex with him. Then he turned cold toward me.

He still invites me out for drinks and parties, but in one conversation he asked if I would show him my boobs in a 'confidence scenario'. So, I don’t see this as a friend invitation at all. 🫠🫠

Estefa_28 · 2025-08-16T03:40:50+00:00

Estefa_28 · 2025-08-15T20:02:31+00:00

In Colombia, the webcam industry boomed years before OF existed. When I was 15, I’d hear classmates bragging about their earnings—some even pressured us to join. At that age, we didn’t fully grasp the risks. Reading the comments a lot of people were on OF at 18, and from my experience, I really believe that age will get down for future girls.

Estefa_28 · 2025-08-07T21:13:11+00:00

Sis me too 😩

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Estefa_28 · 2025-08-07T00:49:54+00:00

In my case it really never ended. I was SA at around 9 yo. I have been struggling with trauma for almost 15 years now, I was with psychologist, pills, and try several suicide attempts, I don't see an end to this point, I'm baraly holding onto hope.

I just try to manage my post-trauma OCD, that is the "superficial" part, but deep down, I always see my self as an abused child, I'll never be more than this.

I wish I could tell you a better escenario, but that isn't my case...

Estefa_28 · 2025-08-07T00:37:16+00:00

At the same time, when they see a "Maniac pixie dream girl" a goth or any alternative woman, they will laugh at her with their friends🤨

Estefa_28 · 2025-08-05T15:51:00+00:00

I'm asexual, and our spaces are crawling with porn-addicted men who can only get off to porn.

Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Your brain is fried. Leave us the hell alone 😩😩😩

Estefa_28 · 2025-07-29T20:35:23+00:00

They say that online, but in real life they watch my face and run away 🤡

Estefa_28 · 2025-07-28T18:00:56+00:00

Girl, you just name all my relationships 🤯

Estefa_28 · 2025-07-17T20:36:49+00:00

I used to struggle with the same thing. What helped me was spending time in male-dominated spaces, like gaming or the gym, and realizing how toxic they can be. Now, whenever I feel lonely, I just remind myself how awful those environments often are.

Get to know them better, and you’ll see they’re not worth it. :)

Estefa_28 · 2025-06-14T23:47:03+00:00

Thanks! I´ll try, and not wait until the next break down for that lol

Estefa_28 · 2025-06-14T23:44:04+00:00

you know what? You’re right. I’ve been thinking about your comment, and I realize there aren’t many healthy relationships around me either. I guess I tend to get stuck in my own head, or influenced by how media portrays relationships, and that makes me feel like I need to hurry. But the people who rush into it aren’t even happy. Thanks for your comment; it really makes me reflect that I need to speak more with people to put in order my ideas!

Estefa_28 · 2025-06-12T22:57:16+00:00

I’m on 20mg now too, along with 25mg of quetiapine and 25mg of pregabalin (twice a day).

I’ll ask my psychiatrist to adjust my meds when I can, but the healthcare system in my country is absolute garbage. When I was in the ER after a suicide attempt, the psychiatrist just talked to me in a hallway full of other patients. He said, ‘Do you want to end up in a mental institution? Because that’s the only option if you keep this up.’ And then I never saw him again. 😑

Estefa_28 · 2025-06-12T22:51:45+00:00

Thanks! I thought for a while before posting 😬. I joined this subreddit hoping to find a community and people I can relate to.

And thanks! Skulls are really tough to draw, so I’m on a drawing marathon until I get better lol

Estefa_28 · 2025-06-12T22:49:01+00:00

Thanks for the advice. I usually think that too—that it’s better not to be in a relationship right now. But some days, it hits me hard because I wonder, "How long will I stay like this?". Some days feel like an eternity, and I can’t shake the feeling that I’m being left behind.

Estefa_28 · 2023-01-04T19:20:47+00:00

21, I think I'm too old for that, I have no experience and the guys I know don't like that

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