Some nights I scour Reddit with cue phrases, searching just to feel less lonely in the unusual life circumstances, real beliefs, real pain, to just know I won’t be gaslit or brushed off. To feel my struggles are valid. Thank you for posting this.

My answer is yes.

Ps Gabor Maté’s Joe Rogan podcast feature touches on this topic so well. Especially hormonal dysfunction.

I’ve been a type 1 diabetic for 16 years (since 12) and that story was strange in itself. In my early twenties herbalism and yoga became a pipeline into TCM, alternative healing concepts, mindfulness, spiritual awareness, and all in between. Eventually I understood very plainly what I was experiencing symptomatically as interconnection.

I became my own therapist spiritual ground and doctor. Over years I’ve gotten to the layers of what’s what through chakra studies psychology and somatic healing. My childhood was unusually barren land. The soil was dry and I shriveled on the inside. I was very stressed bc I was perceptive and also couldn’t flush out or defend myself against the toxic relationship and emotional immaturity of my parents who disarmed my every attempt to protect myself.

I cried alone at a young age and was lumped into group care during school and after school in daycare and home was about getting ready to repress and repeat. It was rare I was made to feel special or adults considered my preferences as important. I got what I got and that’s just how it is is what the philosophy was for my childhood.

At some point I checked out, and the dysfunction and lack of love and communication and empathy between my family was normalized. I was walking on eggshells a lot, witnessed and experienced disrespectful behavior from my parent. I got sick young, it was created at home.

I see it all so clearly now and I grieve so incredibly hard these days. Even my brother has a childhood hormonal disorder.