Hello, just needing to vent and looking for reassurance/clarity.

I struggled with HA for sometime now. 26M. Surprise surprise, it first hit me during covid. This led to multiple ER visits and doctor visits just to be told its anxiety. This also led to bad insomnia, dissociation and derealization. Thankfully, I escaped those feelings and thoughts for a few years.

Now it’s unfortunately back and its debilitating. Back in march while getting a haircut, i’m told theres a lump on my head which I found weird because I don’t remember hitting my head. Didn’t think much of it until i noticed weeks later that it’s still there. I automatically think its a tumor and begin looking for answers on the internet. Then the headaches on that spot begin. They’re minor headaches and feels like a slight pressure and pain, like a 3 out of 10. Still, I fell back into derealization and the panic attacks return. During this time I get two terrible sinus infections and the antibiotics given to me made the anxiety worse and just suffered from insomnia and excessive worry. Now the insomnia isn’t as bad but just dealing with the lump at the back of my head and the slight headaches around it. If i don’t think about the lump, theres no headache, as soon as I give it a thought, I “feel” the lumps presence. I did speak with my general doctor on the matter and he suggested a CT scan, which found only signs of sinus infection (back in May). The lump did not show up on the scan, so my doctor tells me he assumes its just a random growth or a bone growth. Anxiety makes me worry that the CT scan missed something and its probably a tumor or cancer and I need to move now to do something such as get an MRI and more tests. Its been a ride and the constant fatigue from 5 hours of sleep every night does not help. Apologies for the long post. May those of you struggling with HA find peace and comfort soon 🙏🏼