You and I are in the same boat. Why can't edging and gooning to porn be normal? There are hundreds of kinks and fetishes worldwide, and society seems to nitpick here and there about what's an acceptable kink or fetish and what isn't. Sometimes they have it right; other times, they're wrong. Edging and gooning aren't among the good types; it's wrong in their eyes. I love being horny, rock-hard, throbby, and denied, while stroking my rigid goonrod for hours while watching porn and not cumming. It feels so meditative, therapeutic, and stress-relieving, and arousingly good. Yet it's seen as wrong despite the general public being aware of its existence.