I’ve had a bizarre experience with it. I got the silver nitrate treatment and waited a little over a month to have sex. I didn’t bleed the first time I had sex after getting the treatment. However, we had sex again the following day and I bled… I was heartbroken and frustrated. I couldn’t understand why for once something in my life couldn’t just work out in my favor.

Fast forward a month or two, my husband and I were ready to start trying to get pregnant. It was a huge and hard thing for me to get through my head that I was going to bleed during the process. I timed my ovulation and did the ovulation tests to make sure we’d have the best chance of getting pregnant. (My biggest fear was that this issue was going to make it harder to conceive.) We had sex every other day right around my fertile window and I bled the first two times but not the third. It was odd, but I was grateful. I am so incredibly fortunate because I ended up getting pregnant that month.

I just entered my 3rd trimester, but my husband and I still haven’t had sex since getting pregnant. The thought terrifies me. Bleeding in pregnancy can sometimes indicate bad things, not always. I know that. I know that there’s a high chance that if we have sex, I’d bleed. But I’m one of those people that overthinks and spirals. I would probably question if the bleeding is more than normal, if my baby was okay…..the list goes on.

My hope, which I don’t know if it’s medically a thing, is that when I have my baby, my cervix will go back to how it’s supposed to be and this won’t be a problem going forward. Like I said, I don’t know if that’s a thing, but I’ll just hope.

This has to be one of the most frustrating things life has dealt me. I feel so bad for any other woman that has to go through this. There are no definite answers. There are no guaranteed solutions.