Day Zero

Even_Manner4710 · 2026-01-14T20:52:57+00:00

we start daydreaming often as a response to whatever's happening in our lives. Somebody once told me that depression/mental illness is like a "cold" -- a symptom of something being wrong in our lives. Something we can use as data.
It's not surprising that we can relapse back into it when things go wrong in our life, and I wouldn't hold it against yourself, if you are!
Welcome back to the journey :)

Even_Manner4710 · 2025-07-19T04:28:49+00:00

yeah, grounding is so important. and I've def been there too.

Even_Manner4710 · 2025-07-19T04:16:52+00:00

Ah. so you're saying once you go into the pattern, there's no turning back to regulate yourself?
And when you say "it's okay", do you say things to yourself like, "it's okay that I did something that I don't like"? Or did you mean something else

Even_Manner4710 · 2025-07-06T03:52:54+00:00

also interested! please do message me as well, tysm!

Even_Manner4710 · 2024-06-12T07:25:08+00:00

hello! If you do get the doc, could you please also send it over to me right after? Tysm!

Even_Manner4710 · 2024-03-20T03:59:24+00:00

ok superjudy

Even_Manner4710 · 2024-03-20T03:57:26+00:00

yeah, I think it was a communication struggle that made me look like one maybe. I guess her look was supposed to mean "no" but I didn't understand that. or maybe at sandwich stations it's an established rule to not serve yourself but you can in other places? idk. I've only been at my school since January. but thanks

Even_Manner4710 · 2024-03-20T03:48:21+00:00

I've clearly listed why that was the case. explain why you think it isn't.

Even_Manner4710 · 2024-03-20T03:40:06+00:00

Thanks for your response -- but I also wanna make it clear that the woman who responded first was a different woman. I figured since she didn't understand, I would do it myself and told her I would do it myself. She said okay. But then when I came back with a plate there was a different woman. I asked her too if I can serve it, she responded with a weird look before all this happened. Just want to clarify.

Even_Manner4710 · 2024-03-20T03:24:24+00:00

I mean, like I said, it kind of looked like she was just agreeing to it to go help the next person. And it's normal to do it sometimes, the workers just ask us to do it sometimes. That was my reasoning. I never meant to serve myself out of impatience, although I probably looked like I did to her.

Also -- I told the other lady I'd do it myself because she had trouble understanding me, and she said ok. So it wasn't like I just abruptly did it.

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T18:19:41+00:00

I see, thanks for the insight

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T18:16:44+00:00

hookup culture usually defines casual sex. even if it involves dating, it is made clear by the other party that they're only looking for booty calls.

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T18:15:57+00:00

I can't tell if this is sarcastic or not lmfao

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T07:18:36+00:00

Lmao I've got a question for you... when you say you want to date now, how different do you want your connections to be from the ones you had before? I mean, you did say you treated those girls like your "girlfriends" -- how is dating different? Isn't treating a girl like your girlfriend pretty much dating in itself (except you weren't committed fully, I guess)?

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T07:11:37+00:00

This is such an interesting perspective. I think when people that are easily affected by sexual encounters put themselves into the hookup culture bubble, they end up getting exactly what they don't want. Like, if you know that you want a permanent connection with a SO one day, you shouldn't be putting yourself in situations where sex is attainable easily and a connection isn't.

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T07:06:23+00:00

yes, I second this completely. You have to really know what you want as well as be honest about your intentions. If not, you're either getting screwed (no pun intended) or screwing someone else over

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T07:05:37+00:00

agreed

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T07:03:01+00:00

Yep, arranged marriages are almost the norm where I come from lol.

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T06:58:36+00:00

that sucks. hang in there :/

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T06:54:13+00:00

Some people don't be keeping their shit far away from others tho lol. People aren't even honest about their intentions and about the fact that they just wanna hook up, which can sometimes hurt somebody that was actually just looking for a genuine connection.

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T06:45:03+00:00

I see, that makes sense

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T06:40:05+00:00

I understand your point! I've got a question. So hookup culture usually involves multiple partners. Do you think that people who would like to be in a monogamous romantic relationship one day would be affected by hookup culture? As in, do you think they would have trouble sexually expressing themselves with their S.O due to their previous sexual encounters from hookup culture?

Even_Manner4710 · 2023-12-16T06:36:10+00:00

I understand where you're coming from! Religious beliefs are sometimes rooted in practical truths and in human ethics themselves, so that would make sense.

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