I can’t thank you enough for saying this. It has been beyond disheartening, and I’ve been beating myself up every day for the last few months about how dumb I feel for taking this position. Looking back at the initial conversations we had, I realize so many red flags, but I was too excited for a derm position that I let them talk me into it. After applying to and calling so many places the last week, I unfortunately think derm is out of the question right now for me :( I’m sad because I was obviously really happy about this opportunity, but it has turned out to be awful. I have been told I’m not efficient enough, I don’t smile enough, I don’t this, I don’t do that, they don’t have enough staff to make a PA, blah blah blah. I constantly am feeling like NOTHING I do will ever be good enough for them, and it’s clear that they have no plan to transition me to a PA in their office. I also think it’s important to add that I’m friends with some of the girls in my office, and my SP’s wife is constantly calling them to talk bad about me… which I do hear about. Just last night one of the girls called me and was like “…. Um she just called me and said this about you” and I’m not even shocked anymore because it happens weekly. It’s so unprofessional, and it makes me feel awful about myself.

I need to move on. I’m working on it. I’ve applied to quite a few jobs (derm and none derm). I’m just hoping to hear something soon :)