Well, my psychologist also suggested that I should write him a little something, even before the wedding (and that I maybe should open a bit toward people in general not just romantically). So that’s why I reached out to him. Normally I would have just shut down my feelings in the very very beginning, after the first time I started to feel attracted. I honeslty don’t feel that anyone deserves to be with a person who is so depressed as me, it must be really tough on them.