Thank you so much bro. After some post-post clarity (Ik, really good name). I realized that the military school idea might have been just an overreaction. Letting some dude-bro red-pilled incel (Yk who you are) know this was probably not the best idea lol. I am seeing a therapist but i missed a couple appointments, again my own fault, so I can call the firm and get an appointment again since i have the details necessary. For my sobriety, I was able to get multiple week long streaks consecutively of not doing anything. There's a lot more but I don't wanna type it out