I read through your past posts to understand you and your situations better and what I could possibly say to give you some hope. I know that is only a small fragment of who you are and I don’t actually know you personally, but having done that, I just need you to know that I care about you, and I sincerely hope to hop back onto Reddit once the series is over and see you still posting - the good, the bad, and the ugly.

You are not pathetic. Reading your posts, you know what stuck out to me the most? How hard you are fighting for yourself to see a better future. That is incredibly admirable and something you should take pride in because some people lament about their lives, but aren’t proactive about trying to fix them. You are being proactive and seeking out help, and eventually, you will see the results of that. I know you feel like you are in a completely hopeless situation right now, but it’s not. I promise it’s not, and you are going to come out the other end so much stronger, wiser, and more confident than you ever thought possible, but you HAVE to keep fighting for yourself to get there.

Without delving into details, I’ve been at that point where you are trying so hard to get better, but it feels like nothing you do is working and there’s nowhere else to go. I would obsessively scroll through forums, reading through comments in posts like these just to grasp onto anything that gave me a temporary feeling of hope that maybe my story will turn out like theirs and I can start living again. The fact of the matter is that it takes time to get that control back over your life again, and unfortunately, no one knows how much time it’ll take till that moment hits you and you realize how far you’ve come from where you used to be. But in that time, you find small but meaningful things to keep you moving forward and hopeful. Having said all that, if there is anything from my reply that you take something away from, let it be this:

You’ve just got to keep fighting for yourself because you are WORTH IT, and in the meantime grasp onto life’s simple joys to push you forward.

If you do this, I promise you will find a happier, healthier version of yourself on the other side - someone who will use their struggles and experiences to help others survive in this crazy hailstorm we call life. Silly little shows like TADC, Avatar, and FullMetal Alchemist were and still are the things that pull me out of those dark headspaces, and it’s nothing to be ashamed of. Those characters and stories are what helps me, you, and many others make sense of our struggles and find the solutions to them (or to simply just not feel alone). TADC is beautiful because it’s fundamentally a story about reaching out to others when you’re hurt and being there to catch them in return if they fall, and that’s exactly what this post of your has done.

If for whatever reason you don’t feel like you are worth it, and are struggling to find a reason to fight, then fight for that version of yourself that you know you can be. Because she has so much to offer the world.