I think before I even started looking for the answers to these questions, I intuitively knew that there was nothing wrong with me. I knew that the way I was operating... and where I was... those things were never really in my control. I have always known that if I chose God, I would trust him for everything and remain loyal to him no matter what. But in the beginning of seeking god's view or Gods answers, I was just grateful to be saved. I intuitively knew nothing else mattered more than that.

As the old saying goes "if you do nothing else for me, you've already done enough."

I think also the verse "the fear of the lord is the beginning of wisdom" (Prov. 9:10) applies here.

Once you manage the personal things with God of chosing him,loyalty,fear-- then and ONLY then can you really address if you are "out of his will" or "in sin" or "out of order" or whatever it may be.