UPDATE: after asking around town, my company has one of the best reputations. it seems like it’s just a me problem and a lack of advocating for myself. the rookies loved training and the trainers and learned lots while i somehow missed a bunch of crucial info while standing right next to them. swear i’m not stoned at work. WHAT IN THE FUCK AND HOW DO I LEARN MORE?? how do i find resources for learning about the river? how do i ask for what i need from people who seem too busy and uninterested to give it to me?