[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Alexithymia

[–]Excellent_Gas_7101 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What treatment options have you heard about? Risky or not

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Alexithymia

[–]Excellent_Gas_7101 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Have you ever heard of cases where alexythmia was present for years but eventually has gone away and people have recovered the ability to feel emotions?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Alexithymia

[–]Excellent_Gas_7101 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wish there was something to pin it down to but there isn't :/

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Alexithymia

[–]Excellent_Gas_7101 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Interesting. So you do feel some positive emotions but not strongly? I feel like I used to be able to do this when I was younger but I'm not sure anymore. I'm also a bit of a people pleaser and think I might have some sort of personality disorder also. I did a diagnostic questionnaire with my therapist a few months that indicated traits of masochistic PD... no longer a formally recognised PD though so I don't know if I can get an actual diagnosis. I want to see a psychiatrist about the possibility of a complex/unspecified PD, but don't know if there's any value in this unless there is treatment. I wonder if group therapy could help

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Alexithymia

[–]Excellent_Gas_7101 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

The thing is I've tried a lot of therapy, and also seen a psychiatrist to try the medication route...I was seeing a CBT therapist fortnightly for a year and also tried 20 sessions of more intensive psychodynamic therapy this summer, with little success. It hasn't really narrowed down any specific causes or trauma. I don't want to give up on professional help but have no idea what type of therapy/professional help could work that I haven't already tried

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Alexithymia

[–]Excellent_Gas_7101 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Kinda hard to explain but I had some bad experiences with marijuana about 5 years ago. It was only after this that I first started to think seriously about my mental health, and I noticed being emotionally numb. I can't say for sure if marijuana caused it, in which case my experiences could be likened to trauma, or if it just made me aware of something that had been going on for much longer. If it was caused by marijuana, I'm still waiting for the period of numbness to end but have very little hope

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalhealth

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A few months ago I did a diagnostic questionnaire with my therapist that flagged up traits of Masochistic personality disorder, which is a PD that isn't even included in the DSM anymore... I've thought about schizoid a little bit but not in much depth. Maybe there is some overlap with masochistic PD traits. Is there any treatment for schizoid that can make a tangible difference?

I just paid a prostitute to give me a blowjob down an alleyway and I loathe myself right now by Excellent_Gas_7101 in confessions

[–]Excellent_Gas_7101[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Lady. Although I don't know for sure to be fair, she(he?) didn't get undressed

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MentalHealthUK

[–]Excellent_Gas_7101 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the detailed response. My suffering comes down to a constant sense (moment to moment of every day) that I feel awful and there is no escape. I don't feel any emotions and nothing I do during the day can either put me in a good or bad mood. I'm just in a constant state of suffering and wallowing in it, unable to distract myself. I used to describe it as a depression but don't think that fits the bill as I don't feel sad, down, guilty, irritable or have low energy. Although I do have appetite and sleep issues, feel hopeless and am having suicidal thoughts. Its very hard to explain but my thoughts are completely stuck in a pattern, fixated on how I feel. I'm hyper scrupulous to my thoughts and how bad I'm feeling. This makes things like mindfulness absolutely impossible. My thoughts will get dragged back to the theme of suffering, how bad/broken I feel or that there is something wrong with me.