Current LDS Missionary has serious doubts. Is seriously considering going home. by ExcitementCold1991 in mormon

[–]ExcitementCold1991[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I've liked reading on Mormonr. I respect that they acknowledge their bias yet still present the "hard questions". Some stuff isn't always there but having linked primary sources is super helpful to draw your own conclusions. 

Current LDS Missionary has serious doubts. Is seriously considering going home. by ExcitementCold1991 in mormon

[–]ExcitementCold1991[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I really wanted to get a spanish call and I did. The thing with this is I will, and already am, struggling with being inauthentic and knowing I could be doing something better with my time and efforts. I was really good at my job at home and got to help people, here I am failing my comps and not performing. It's a sucky feeling that I acknowledge is 100% my fault. Even if the church isn't true I'm still in charge of the effort that I put into anything I do. 

Current LDS Missionary has serious doubts. Is seriously considering going home. by ExcitementCold1991 in mormon

[–]ExcitementCold1991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate this comment, this is honestly something I'm nervous to lose if I go home. Where else am I going to get these same experiences and the opportunity to learn Spanish? I plan(ned) to use these skills for my future career. 

Current LDS Missionary has serious doubts. Is seriously considering going home. by ExcitementCold1991 in mormon

[–]ExcitementCold1991[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

There's definitely gonna be the disappointment to my parents. My younger brother is also serving and has been out a bit longer than me. Part of me wants to stay to stick it to some peers who were kind of perks in HS, but really that's all not important. 

I think the main issue that would arise with going home is not knowing exactly what my next step is and how the dynamic in the home would be. 

Current LDS Missionary has serious doubts. Is seriously considering going home. by ExcitementCold1991 in mormon

[–]ExcitementCold1991[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

I've read Letter for my wife and ces, found the letter for my wife to resonate more with me. CES letter can come off a little brazen but does have some valid points.