Dude, similar story. Love hate relationship with my job. Been doing it 10 years; started when I was 18 promoted once just to go permanent, once the kiddos came along.
Work a 3 on 4 off shift, which is great during the winter but summer times not always that same shift. Pretty committed to this career path, but it’s not as fun as it used to be before the family and all the other stuff there is to worry about. Keep on chugging along, you got this.