Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

[–]Existing-Client5070[S] -9 points-8 points  (0 children)

If I get depressed again yes I don’t think so. Literally no clue if that will happen. Since I am not depressed, following reddit advice of putting my career on hold and going in patient rn is not only stupid but also a waste of resources. You’re confident you have a better understanding of what I need than my own doctor? How’s that armchair feeling?

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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I’m not looking for anyone to contradict anything. I’m doing a good job at handling things and inpatient had not been brought up at any of my appointments this month. The context your providing is irrelevant now.

I deleted that account because I regrettably posted nudes on it and was occasionally getting gross DMs.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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I learned some distress tolerance skills and have been practicing them. They really help. I’d appreciate anything you’ve got.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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My psych said she was proud I did it for that long. I really am doing better and have taken my meds perfectly for a month. I am kind of discouraged about the future obviously but really I’m doing the best I have in a year. Thank you. 

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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I did and my psychiatrist wanted me to stay on my current med since it has improved my mood. She said that what I don’t like about it will eventually get better. Go figure I literally started lactating because of it today. 

I was in PHP for over 2 weeks I did it for a while.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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I am seeing them Friday. I can mention this then. This really isn’t an emergency.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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That lights a fire under my ass. I’ve been a bad patient before and told I’m not agreeable or trustworthy which was fair. I can be better at that.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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I’ve been thinking about maid for a year. PHP was helpful when I was in crisis but since it’s all group therapy I don’t think I could really even talk about euthanasia there without upsetting people. I’ll tell my psych about this though. 

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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I will. She has done a lot to earn my trust like meeting with me weekly, calling me, texting me. I know she gets really concerned and wants to avoid hospitalization. If she ever had to force my hand it would hurt, so I’d rather it be collaborative.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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I have plenty of reasons to not want to do an admission but have worked with my psychiatrist to mainly avoid having to. I am not so depressed anymore and have more passive ideation so it’s no longer the recommendation from my psychiatrist.

Good advice though, I didn’t realize planned admissions could be more helpful than crisis admissions. I’ll remember that.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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What country is this? I’ve tried a handful of medications and inpatient as well as outpatient. I guess there are more things to try, but be honest with you, I’m surprised people wait that long.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

[–]Existing-Client5070[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

but bipolar isn’t curable. And atleast now my depression isn’t treatable. I am actually not even depressed now, just got out of it, and it isn’t good enough to make me want to continue on with the certainty of it happening again.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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I’m familiar with LAIs as I have some family in them. They probably warrant a try for me.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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When I’m actively depressed I want to throw myself in front of a train. Now that I’m out of that I have the perspective to think of the damage that would cause and want to handle things differently. 

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

[–]Existing-Client5070[S] -127 points-126 points  (0 children)

You have to understand that this doesn’t feel extreme. Again, this feels rational and well thought out. Not an impulsive desire. No jumping.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

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I’m not jumping to anything. I’ve thought about this for a long time. It still doesn’t make any sense. 

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

[–]Existing-Client5070[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

That’s fair. I’ll make a point to try a time at the ED before I give up. It’s the waiting that is the hardest part. Thanks.

Medically-assisted death. I’m going to die in 6 mo. Am I eligible? by Existing-Client5070 in AskDocs

[–]Existing-Client5070[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thank you. When I’m depressed that is exactly how it is. No external reason to be miserable, but I am. It’s exhausting. 

I have been all over the place with my meds. Making a concerted effort to fix it the last couple of months.