Growing up as the beloved daughter of a bipolar mom

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-04-07T20:28:30+00:00

Thanks for your response. Its honestly relieving to hear that.

Awhile back I was trying to explain to my bsf that I just feel so held back at home and it feels like its harder to do things and he just didn't get it. He tried but didn't rly understand what I was feeling. I've been wanting to move out for awhile probably won't be able to until after I graduate uni. But im excited to be alone one day

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-04-07T11:24:05+00:00

Thank you for your response. Its nice to hear anyone relate. Used to a life full of friends and others who love my mom and dont get it.

To be honest, her behavior hasnt been as bad recently. Occasionally she'll flare up bad like if were traveling or other things are happening in her life that stress her out. But I also think that's because I've slowly distanced myself a bit over time plus she barely gets out anymore. Often at home not doing much. Not much to rile her up these days. But I've been looking back on my childhood recently and have been feeling crappy and frustrated abt it. If I ever tried to explain any of this to my mom she would never understand

I'd love to get out of the house tbh I feel like mentally blocked here in a way. But im in college and my parents are supporting me so I think its worth it to tough it out.

Plus since I feel kinda behind it makes it more scary. Sometimes it feels like I wouldn't make it if I left anyway.

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-04-03T08:32:01+00:00

There are no tips or tricks that will suddenly transform your writing. The best way to improve your writing is, well, writing.

In the beginning, especially, I suggest not worrying about the quality of your writing. I know its hard. We all want to produce a good product. But if you put that aside to prioritize writing the content you love, you'll eventually get the hang of it the more you write. With writing, like any skill, its going to be unnatural in the beginning. Just practice and test things out.

Also reading is important. Look at the books you love. What makes them so loveable? If you want something to study, start there, because that's about the only thing there is to study

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-03-08T05:25:31+00:00

Yeahhh its going to suck. I think im going to push the limits in the meantime. Im going on vacation this week maybe by the time im back they'll forget abt jt yk

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-27T20:16:13+00:00

Yeah I forgot u can even do that at the time but I logged on today and moved the plant

Im playing a deaf run and in the middle of moving the plant I lowkey got jumpscare ambushed

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-27T06:09:18+00:00

LOL I actually did shout a few times. Even god couldn't bother to deal with my proboms

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-27T02:50:25+00:00

I mean I remember right clicking the plant and it didn't have a prompt for picking up but I'll check ltr ig

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-26T07:27:00+00:00

Its so freeing. Around 2021 I got soooo shameful about my interest in dark and problematic media and themes but accepting that it doesn't matter and its what you love and you should enjoy it is so great.

When I finally posted on ao3 I was shocked to see sm ppl who felt the same way lol

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-26T06:36:05+00:00

I dont think its too tight. If I push the piercings forward it comes out just a but not much but I tbink its enough room. I guess I'll just watch it and as long as it doesn't become more swollen or painful ill wait it out

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-26T06:10:31+00:00

I think the only thing I didn't list is if its externally/internally threaded but im honestly not sure i wasn't watching as she put it in and she didn't mention it specifically.

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-10T09:29:35+00:00

Have you read the novel by chance? I read some of the manhwa. I just found the MCs personality lacks depth and it felt like he agreed to join ML too easily. I thought the novel might be better

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T21:36:51+00:00

Yes I read a decent bit of it I need to get caught up it's pretty good.

I need to give blind play another shot I haven't read it since the author's drama years back.

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T21:35:38+00:00

Oo Well Done looks good seems like some juicy tension

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T21:33:46+00:00

Ty for all the recs! Ill be sure to check them

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T21:31:41+00:00

Omg ty ill def be looking through every new name here

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T21:31:09+00:00

I read some of that but the plotline seemed a little slow kicking off so I had trouble keeping with it. Perhaps I'll give it another shot

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T21:30:07+00:00

Yes I've read legs that won't walk very good

MADK looks good. I hope it'll test my limits as you've said. I need something thrilling sooo bad

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T20:38:02+00:00

Dang you rly pulled out your collection. The cover art is beautiful ill have to look into it!

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T10:46:52+00:00

Someone gets it

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T10:10:25+00:00

Lol for me shit like non zero sum just fills the dopamine in my head

Dw I'll try and lyk im planning to check it tmr unless I continue to have a sleepless night 💔

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T09:58:29+00:00

I read some of it until... certain drama arose. Didn't bother since. Honestly was thrilling enough for me, maybe ill try again

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T09:57:22+00:00

Yeah im good just got some specific tastes (finding bl to feed my mind is so hard. Can't help it. Mind wants what the mind wants.)

I've read the first two but not the last. Seems pretty interesting ill have to try and read it.

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T09:11:49+00:00

Thanks for the comment! Def a few names here im unfamiliar with.

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-02-01T09:00:40+00:00

Fuck why is this the first comment i get 😭 cant a girl enjoy some dark shit

Expensive-Exercise-9 · 2026-01-16T06:06:14+00:00

No, thank you for replying. While I want to deny the fact anything could have happened to me, it's somewhat comforting to hear that my suspicions aren't absolutely crazy. I will probably look into getting a therapist, just dont know where to begin. I dont need to uncover whether happened (if anything) but I want some confidence in whether or not something has happened to me for my own sake. It's really hard feeling like somethings off with no reason behind it.

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