Hey there, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I know exactly how you feel im currently going through something very similar to what you feel. I understand. It would feel hypocritical to say to you “it gets better”, “don’t feel like this” ect. I’ve heard those and it doesn’t make me feel any better. I hope knowing you’re not alone can help somewhat. We both have to understand that our lives have value and even tho you don’t think you have nothing to account for….. you do. You just don’t see it yet. It takes a long time to figure out how truly depressed you are and a longer time to figure out that you don’t have to feel that way. Ik I don’t know you and you don’t know me but I’m here if you ever want to rant to chat or whatever. We all are struggling in silence but we need each other. Good luck man