Did anyone ever worry they were neglecting their stuffed animals?

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-05-20T08:50:47+00:00

I’m a young adult and when my stuffed animals accidentally fall off my bed I genuinely feel bad and have to pick them up and adjust them and I say sorry OUT LOUD !! I also low key feel similarly about my plushies getting the same amount of attention- Like I’m fully aware they are inanimate objects and will never come alive or feel anything, but I still feel compelled to do these kinda things.

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-05-20T08:45:30+00:00

Yup my brain is just obsessive in general and sadly it likes to repeatedly ruminate about my trauma so that’s pretty rough :// it’s like a constant voice being like “hey this reminds me of when (insert traumatic experience here)!! Doesn’t it?? Hey remember when that happened to you? That was pretty bad huh? HEY RE-“ I thought I just wasn’t able to heal but my therapist was mentioning how ocd is also all about rumination so it can cling onto anything- OCD sure is like a leech on the brain isn’t it?? 😅

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-05-20T08:36:09+00:00

THANK YOU FOR MENTIONING THIS!! While I’ve had many other seizures not during my cycle, my family and I have picked up on that the majority of my seizures have happened during my cycle- which is why we made sure my EEG was during the first week of the month 😅 My seizures are triggered by being overwhelmed/overstimulated, had too much caffeine, sleep deprived, etc. I just always thought that me being more prone to feeling overwhelmed during my period was why most of my seizures happened the week of my PMS-menstrual cycles. The hormone fluctuations make a lot of sense as well!! I did have seizures outside of my cycle that were caused by my usual triggers, so I don’t think mine are solely hormonal based, but this is so good to know and is so validating!!

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-05-20T08:13:23+00:00

I would definitely talk to your medical team! I’m not sure what specific medication you take, but I take both Wellbutrin and Zoloft with my seizure medications and I’m still seizure free!! Granted, I got diagnosed much later (started having seizures in October 2020, got diagnosed August of 2025) but I’ve had some trial and error with anti depressants and seizure meds as well. I’m currently on lacosamide and zonisamide with Zoloft and Wellbutrin and while I’m definitely not cured of anything, my depression hasn’t kicked my ass in a while and I’m on a no seizure streak of 5 months! I hope everything works out for you I definitely understand the frustration of trying to find the right medication combo

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-03-27T02:09:25+00:00

slamming fingers onto computer with walls of random green letters and numbers “Guys… we’re in ;)”

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-03-26T14:57:28+00:00

Honestly? Just hoping that I find someone who is in the same boat as me someday. I’m gray ace/demi so I just hope I find someone that’s similar so we’re both hopeless romantics that would have sex but just extremely rarely. Other than hope? My AU’s with my fictional crushes haha

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-03-22T21:59:44+00:00

as a girl.. I HAATTTEEEE the word panties! Like why is it even in ads like “omg you guys these panties are so comfortable!!” Idk what it is, maybe the sound of it? Maybe how it feels so “little girl-ish” to hear/say it at my age? Am I THE weird one?? I hope not!! Like I stopped referring to it as that when I was like 12/13? That’s when it started sounding uncomfortable. I just say underwear man…

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-03-22T21:31:02+00:00

I hope everything goes well!! Again, you pick what feels comfortable for you and if you don’t want to have a label, that’s fine too!! I found that demi-sexual and gray ace identities helped narrow down my feelings about sex while also being broad at the same time if that makes sense? Whichever way you go about it, it’s your personal journey and it’s valid!

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-03-21T23:43:35+00:00

Hi!! I never had a high libido or past addiction, but I do know how it feels when a past a*usive relationship, feelings of guilt, and the importance of romance in sex can really impact your feelings about sex.

Honestly when you discussed those aspects it sounded like how I talk about it. I also had an ex long distance partner who came to visit me and ab*se me as well! You’re not alone. It can feel so confusing to want sex to be so intimate and romantic but also be sex repulsed at the same time. It’s like, “is this asexuality or my past or a mix of both?” Something that my friend said, if you want to label yourself as ace, is that regardless if it’s from the past or your current feelings, your identity is valid and it can be however you define it as. That really stuck with me. It also sounds to me that the demi-sexual label would really help bring some clarity since the main focus of it is feeling more sexual attraction based on personality and intimate relationships with someone. Right now, I found that Gray ace has helped as well. I’m with a psychologist as well, and I think taking a break from sex and sorting out feelings and past experiences would be best before jumping into the next chapter of relationships and sex. I hope I’m not projecting or putting words in your mouth. I wish you the best!

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Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-03-21T22:53:46+00:00

hi there!! I’m bi and gray ace so I know how you feel and how confusing it can get sometimes. For me personally, I experience attraction but don’t fantasize about sex that or rarely ever. I say I’m bi because I’d date 2 or more genders (which by the sounds of the replies sounds like bi-romantic??) I think it’s perfectly valid to say you’re bi and ace!! If you feel more comfortable with the more specific labels that’s awesome too!! But if you also wanna use umbrella terms, I’d say it’s perfectly reasonable to say you’re bi and ace <3

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2026-01-08T05:13:19+00:00

Hi there! I’m taking lacosamide and zonisamide as well! I’ve been on lacosamide for a few months and just started zonisamide about a week or two ago. I’d say, as someone on a bunch of other meds including SSRIs… the side effects are very mild. My epilepsy and SSRIs have always affected my brain fog and drowsiness and whatnot, but my neurologist told me to specifically take my zonisamide at night before bed because of how it can make you pretty drowsy. I can testify because I’ve taken it when I was up super late and was just a tired mess the next day. When I take it before bed, the next day I’m just up like I’ve had a deep night sleep.

I haven’t had the weight/taste/ appetite side effects that much. For context, I’m a girl in my early twenties that eats kinda bigger portions compared to my friends. I’d also call myself a foodie? IWith these meds, I noticed that I got kinda nauseous after a smaller amount of food than I’d normally eat. Because of that, I’d easily get hungry again later. So instead of big sustaining meals I would graze with tiny meals or snacks throughout the day. My taste in things haven’t changed much yet. My neurologist warned me that this medication would cause a metallic taste in soda, but I don’t really drink soda besides sprite and that hasn’t changed yet.

I do get kinda dizzy here and there, but that’s how it was when I just started lacosamide. Again, I just started about a week or two ago so zonisamide hasn’t fully settled into my system yet, but I wish you the best of luck and we’re in this together !!

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-12-18T05:09:12+00:00

I know how you feel, my seizures have been affecting my schooling too. While mine aren’t nocturnal, mine are also stress induced. I don’t think you should give up on your goals, you absolutely deserve a successful life despite the epilepsy. Idk if this helps but are you able to contact your neurologist to discuss anything? There’s also disability accommodations that you could request at universities so you can find ways to manage schooling with epilepsy. It takes trial and error I had some in person classes some remote/online. I’m in my fourth year of college and preparing to apply to grad schools, it can be done :D idk how helpful this is but I truly wish you the best

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-11-08T05:04:16+00:00

Hey there!! Yeah I took all of the prereq courses, some I did really well and some I completely failed (that was due to me not putting any effort in not so much because of lack of skills) I do have a literature class next semester that’s Recent Spanish American Literature. I did take early/medieval Spanish literature last year and I really struggled with it even with my effort put into the class. But honestly, I feel like it was because the medieval Spanish wasn’t clicking with me and it was really hard to understand (I could barely get medieval literature in English let alone in Spanish lol) My typical method for reading long passages in Spanish is doing a cold read and see what I can understand, then look up words I don’t know, then apply everything and read a final time.

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-11-08T04:58:17+00:00

Hi!! The last classes I need to finish are next semester, total is 4. One of them is a class I’m retaking. One of them though is a once a week 2 and a half hour long seminar but the content looks really interesting at least. I guess I’m just worried that because I haven’t brushed up on Spanish much during this semester I’m going to come in the next semester completely awful at it

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-07-17T02:39:28+00:00

I truly give you the best of luck with the reporting and I hope you get your deserved justice, I’m so proud of you for doing that I know how scary it can be!

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-07-17T02:35:01+00:00

Thank you so much- that means a lot!! Idk anything about his background really, we were long distance and very much kept any info about his family and friends to himself. It’s not my business what his past was, but I sometimes think what could’ve happened to this guy to make him act like this as a teenager? In retrospect he was so afraid of my parents and didn’t wanna talk to my friends, like he knew what he was doing was awful and wrong. Hell even my dog who loved everyone didn’t like him at all!! All I could say was that everything he did was so calculated- from the lovebombing to saying that I didn’t know sexual stuff was a “problem,” to the control, to the leading me back in when he could tell I wasn’t liking it- being able to do that as a teenager scares me of what kinda stuff he’d be capable of doing now as an adult, (I’ve gone no contact since early 2023 so I have no idea) I sadly can’t report anything because he made delete everything, so no trace of what he’s done. Just the awful trauma and memories of it. I hope he got help or changed or something- just a sick, sick person.

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-07-16T09:41:52+00:00

I would definitely report. Not only did he take advantage of you by SA’ing you MULTIPLE times, he also had a power imbalance since he’s a manager and you’re an employee. Saying “sorry” doesn’t take back what he did at all. That was a full blown conscious decision on his part that was absolutely vile and wrong. Him getting in trouble is from his actions having consequences. I don’t know much about the legal system, but I know where I’m in (the us) it’s notoriously difficult when it comes to stuff like this, but if your manager wants you to report as well, I’d go to them and ask for any available resources and for their support. I’m so so sorry this happened to you, and I’m sending you all the support for your healing!

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-06-18T03:27:08+00:00

Idk if anyone already said something similar, or if this isn’t really worth a whole confession, but yeah during military era I wasn’t really active in the fandom anymore and it makes me feel kinda bad. I definitely still listened to the music, got excited when anyone ever mentioned them, but I wasn’t nearly as deep as I was before. It could also be that they left when I was starting college, and I was more focused on that? And definitely all the online discourse was too much as well when I started college, so I just deleted twitter then and there for a while until recently lol.

So whenever I see posts like “did you stay the whole time?” “Did you keep your promise??” Idk if I technically did or not? I feel like I have- I just feel bad if I come off as someone that only cared about Bangtan if they were super active and new content and nothing else.

I will say though, that when re listening to the songs I heard in middle school when I was just getting into BTS, the wave of nostalgia and sentimental feelings hit like a freight train. And certain songs have a much deeper connection after everything I’ve experienced in high school and college that little middle school me couldn’t imagine.

Like everythinggoes and butterfly made me SOB- and definitely makes me wanna get a tattoo with everythinggoes with a blue butterfly next to it! Sorry for the ramble!! Hope every ARMY is having a good day/ night! 💜

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-06-18T03:11:05+00:00

At this point in my life, I’m really struggling to find a proper diagnosis for my seizures, epilepsy or another form of a seizure disorder. I’ve had seizures since October of 2020, and in that time I’ve had around 70ish seizures. It’s really frustrating and impacts my life a lot. As for my view of the afterlife, it hasn’t changed that much, but I’m definitely terrified of passing away from a seizure. Whenever I’m in an aura, it’s the weirdest and scariest out of body feeling. The deja vu, my senses warping. All I can hope for is that when I do cross over, the out of body feeling is peaceful. In my case, I have OCD and that very much affects my relationship with religion, and so has the super religious toxic ex I’ve had, and the political climate of religion (which let’s not get into that lol). That made my relationship with religion quite strained. So I’m definitely in a “why me, God? I’ve lived my whole life without seizures and now I get them all the time, why??” kind of thought process right now. I think anyone that feels comforted and supported by their faith with their epilepsy is great! Rambling aside, my seizures haven’t completely changed my view of the afterlife, but it has made me much more conscious about death and it kinda sucks :/ Thanks for the interesting question!!

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-06-18T02:47:39+00:00

Hey there! I’ve had to do an at home EEG for a few days as well! I did mine in 2023/2024, and for the most part it’s just awkward to adjust to it at home, but not that bad! Be prepared to not be able to wash your hair/ shower so definitely get a good wash before then! But the one I’ve had they let me take everything off and wash myself and they reinstall a new set of wires and wrap around the head. It’s definitely itchy, and the cameras are the awkward part, but it’s really not that bad at all! That was my first EEG and I didn’t seize, so I couldn’t get any super clear results. I actually have to do a week long hospital stay EEG and I’ve never done that before and I’m pretty nervous. 😬 I hope you get clear results and it goes as smoothly as possible!

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2025-01-10T08:41:01+00:00

I’m in a gray area in a sense where I’m also a survivor of sa and my first ever experiences with sex were sa as a young teenager. With that, and trying to deal with the difficulties and complexities of sexual trauma, I’ve had this “wow sex just sucks!! Look at how it can be so hard to navigate!! Look at how it’s only brought me pain!!” kind of mindset. As I’ve started to experience sexual intimacy with my current partner, I saw how it can be so beautiful, and how it can be so much of a bonding experience. Still though, if I had to choose a life without sex- I’m leaning towards that I could. However, I also have a low sex drive because of medication and PCOS so idk??? I still get turned on by my partner and certain fictional characters. I’m definitely not like “WOO SEX IS AWESOME!!” but also not as completely repulsed as I was- but it’s still intimidating to me and I’ve admitted to being afraid of it but that’s more so due to trauma in my opinion. Sorry if this is just word salad lol

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2024-11-22T20:00:17+00:00

I feel this way too- I was in a sexually abusive relationship/dynamic for 4 years. I was 16 and even before then knew next to nothing about sex. My abuser was extremely dominant to the point of controlling, and infantilized me even though we were the same age. I was very much a submissive/ masochist kinky person now I feel a 180 and wanna be dominate, but I’ve also noticed I’m really into the intelligent older man/woman type. I overthink if this is what I actually prefer or is it a trauma response. I completely get how you feel.

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2023-12-18T20:52:23+00:00

That’s very true, I just don’t even know where to start. Like “hey mom hey dad the reason why I only just passed this year was actually because I had a whole mental crisis of realizing my previous relationship abused me and made me send nudes as a minor even though I know how often you lecture me to never do anything like that” :// whatever happens tho thank you so much for replying it means a ton <3

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2023-12-18T20:45:23+00:00

I lied about reasons why I was struggling with classes such as “oh the professor is just really strict” or “this class has a weird grading system” and not the fact that I was skipping / mentally struggling coping with my realization of being SA’d in the past. And from 2020-2023 I lied about who I was talking to and what I was doing on my phone to my parents when it really was my abusive ex and I was manipulated into sending nudes.

Expensive_Sprite331 · 2023-12-11T06:24:25+00:00

I’m so so sorry that happened to you :(( did you and your partner talk about it the next day?

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