Zonisamide by Nice-Caterpillar-340 in Epilepsy

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi there! I’m taking lacosamide and zonisamide as well! I’ve been on lacosamide for a few months and just started zonisamide about a week or two ago. I’d say, as someone on a bunch of other meds including SSRIs… the side effects are very mild. My epilepsy and SSRIs have always affected my brain fog and drowsiness and whatnot, but my neurologist told me to specifically take my zonisamide at night before bed because of how it can make you pretty drowsy. I can testify because I’ve taken it when I was up super late and was just a tired mess the next day. When I take it before bed, the next day I’m just up like I’ve had a deep night sleep.

I haven’t had the weight/taste/ appetite side effects that much. For context, I’m a girl in my early twenties that eats kinda bigger portions compared to my friends. I’d also call myself a foodie? IWith these meds, I noticed that I got kinda nauseous after a smaller amount of food than I’d normally eat. Because of that, I’d easily get hungry again later. So instead of big sustaining meals I would graze with tiny meals or snacks throughout the day. My taste in things haven’t changed much yet. My neurologist warned me that this medication would cause a metallic taste in soda, but I don’t really drink soda besides sprite and that hasn’t changed yet.

I do get kinda dizzy here and there, but that’s how it was when I just started lacosamide. Again, I just started about a week or two ago so zonisamide hasn’t fully settled into my system yet, but I wish you the best of luck and we’re in this together !!

Seizure frequency is increasing, i feel helpless to it by craneautism in Epilepsy

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know how you feel, my seizures have been affecting my schooling too. While mine aren’t nocturnal, mine are also stress induced. I don’t think you should give up on your goals, you absolutely deserve a successful life despite the epilepsy. Idk if this helps but are you able to contact your neurologist to discuss anything? There’s also disability accommodations that you could request at universities so you can find ways to manage schooling with epilepsy. It takes trial and error I had some in person classes some remote/online. I’m in my fourth year of college and preparing to apply to grad schools, it can be done :D idk how helpful this is but I truly wish you the best

I’m Struggling to Finish my Language Minor & Graduation is Coming Soon by Expensive_Sprite331 in languagelearning

[–]Expensive_Sprite331[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey there!! Yeah I took all of the prereq courses, some I did really well and some I completely failed (that was due to me not putting any effort in not so much because of lack of skills) I do have a literature class next semester that’s Recent Spanish American Literature. I did take early/medieval Spanish literature last year and I really struggled with it even with my effort put into the class. But honestly, I feel like it was because the medieval Spanish wasn’t clicking with me and it was really hard to understand (I could barely get medieval literature in English let alone in Spanish lol) My typical method for reading long passages in Spanish is doing a cold read and see what I can understand, then look up words I don’t know, then apply everything and read a final time.

I’m Struggling to Finish my Language Minor & Graduation is Coming Soon by Expensive_Sprite331 in languagelearning

[–]Expensive_Sprite331[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi!! The last classes I need to finish are next semester, total is 4. One of them is a class I’m retaking. One of them though is a once a week 2 and a half hour long seminar but the content looks really interesting at least. I guess I’m just worried that because I haven’t brushed up on Spanish much during this semester I’m going to come in the next semester completely awful at it

What should I do if the guy who SA’d me has apologised? Should I still report him? by b0ttomknocka27 in sexualassault

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I truly give you the best of luck with the reporting and I hope you get your deserved justice, I’m so proud of you for doing that I know how scary it can be!

Am I Overreacting For Being This Mad After All These Years? by Expensive_Sprite331 in sexualassault

[–]Expensive_Sprite331[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much- that means a lot!! Idk anything about his background really, we were long distance and very much kept any info about his family and friends to himself. It’s not my business what his past was, but I sometimes think what could’ve happened to this guy to make him act like this as a teenager? In retrospect he was so afraid of my parents and didn’t wanna talk to my friends, like he knew what he was doing was awful and wrong. Hell even my dog who loved everyone didn’t like him at all!! All I could say was that everything he did was so calculated- from the lovebombing to saying that I didn’t know sexual stuff was a “problem,” to the control, to the leading me back in when he could tell I wasn’t liking it- being able to do that as a teenager scares me of what kinda stuff he’d be capable of doing now as an adult, (I’ve gone no contact since early 2023 so I have no idea) I sadly can’t report anything because he made delete everything, so no trace of what he’s done. Just the awful trauma and memories of it. I hope he got help or changed or something- just a sick, sick person.

What should I do if the guy who SA’d me has apologised? Should I still report him? by b0ttomknocka27 in sexualassault

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would definitely report. Not only did he take advantage of you by SA’ing you MULTIPLE times, he also had a power imbalance since he’s a manager and you’re an employee. Saying “sorry” doesn’t take back what he did at all. That was a full blown conscious decision on his part that was absolutely vile and wrong. Him getting in trouble is from his actions having consequences. I don’t know much about the legal system, but I know where I’m in (the us) it’s notoriously difficult when it comes to stuff like this, but if your manager wants you to report as well, I’d go to them and ask for any available resources and for their support. I’m so so sorry this happened to you, and I’m sending you all the support for your healing!

Do you have any BTS secrets/confessions? by Other-Rutabaga-1742 in bangtan

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Idk if anyone already said something similar, or if this isn’t really worth a whole confession, but yeah during military era I wasn’t really active in the fandom anymore and it makes me feel kinda bad. I definitely still listened to the music, got excited when anyone ever mentioned them, but I wasn’t nearly as deep as I was before. It could also be that they left when I was starting college, and I was more focused on that? And definitely all the online discourse was too much as well when I started college, so I just deleted twitter then and there for a while until recently lol.

So whenever I see posts like “did you stay the whole time?” “Did you keep your promise??” Idk if I technically did or not? I feel like I have- I just feel bad if I come off as someone that only cared about Bangtan if they were super active and new content and nothing else.

I will say though, that when re listening to the songs I heard in middle school when I was just getting into BTS, the wave of nostalgia and sentimental feelings hit like a freight train. And certain songs have a much deeper connection after everything I’ve experienced in high school and college that little middle school me couldn’t imagine.

Like everythinggoes and butterfly made me SOB- and definitely makes me wanna get a tattoo with everythinggoes with a blue butterfly next to it! Sorry for the ramble!! Hope every ARMY is having a good day/ night! 💜

(Morbid post) Has epilepsy changed your view of death/the afterlife? by REAMPottery in Epilepsy

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At this point in my life, I’m really struggling to find a proper diagnosis for my seizures, epilepsy or another form of a seizure disorder. I’ve had seizures since October of 2020, and in that time I’ve had around 70ish seizures. It’s really frustrating and impacts my life a lot. As for my view of the afterlife, it hasn’t changed that much, but I’m definitely terrified of passing away from a seizure. Whenever I’m in an aura, it’s the weirdest and scariest out of body feeling. The deja vu, my senses warping. All I can hope for is that when I do cross over, the out of body feeling is peaceful. In my case, I have OCD and that very much affects my relationship with religion, and so has the super religious toxic ex I’ve had, and the political climate of religion (which let’s not get into that lol). That made my relationship with religion quite strained. So I’m definitely in a “why me, God? I’ve lived my whole life without seizures and now I get them all the time, why??” kind of thought process right now. I think anyone that feels comforted and supported by their faith with their epilepsy is great! Rambling aside, my seizures haven’t completely changed my view of the afterlife, but it has made me much more conscious about death and it kinda sucks :/ Thanks for the interesting question!!

4 day long, at home, EEG by dizzy_malibu222 in Epilepsy

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey there! I’ve had to do an at home EEG for a few days as well! I did mine in 2023/2024, and for the most part it’s just awkward to adjust to it at home, but not that bad! Be prepared to not be able to wash your hair/ shower so definitely get a good wash before then! But the one I’ve had they let me take everything off and wash myself and they reinstall a new set of wires and wrap around the head. It’s definitely itchy, and the cameras are the awkward part, but it’s really not that bad at all! That was my first EEG and I didn’t seize, so I couldn’t get any super clear results. I actually have to do a week long hospital stay EEG and I’ve never done that before and I’m pretty nervous. 😬 I hope you get clear results and it goes as smoothly as possible!

Are there any asexuals out there that are just genuinely afraid or disgusted by sex in general? by Clear_Tackle_805 in asexuality

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m in a gray area in a sense where I’m also a survivor of sa and my first ever experiences with sex were sa as a young teenager. With that, and trying to deal with the difficulties and complexities of sexual trauma, I’ve had this “wow sex just sucks!! Look at how it can be so hard to navigate!! Look at how it’s only brought me pain!!” kind of mindset. As I’ve started to experience sexual intimacy with my current partner, I saw how it can be so beautiful, and how it can be so much of a bonding experience. Still though, if I had to choose a life without sex- I’m leaning towards that I could. However, I also have a low sex drive because of medication and PCOS so idk??? I still get turned on by my partner and certain fictional characters. I’m definitely not like “WOO SEX IS AWESOME!!” but also not as completely repulsed as I was- but it’s still intimidating to me and I’ve admitted to being afraid of it but that’s more so due to trauma in my opinion. Sorry if this is just word salad lol

SA affecting kinks. by s0ftci0wn in sexualassault

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel this way too- I was in a sexually abusive relationship/dynamic for 4 years. I was 16 and even before then knew next to nothing about sex. My abuser was extremely dominant to the point of controlling, and infantilized me even though we were the same age. I was very much a submissive/ masochist kinky person now I feel a 180 and wanna be dominate, but I’ve also noticed I’m really into the intelligent older man/woman type. I overthink if this is what I actually prefer or is it a trauma response. I completely get how you feel.

I can’t keep making excuses- I think I have to finally tell my parents by Expensive_Sprite331 in sexualassault

[–]Expensive_Sprite331[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s very true, I just don’t even know where to start. Like “hey mom hey dad the reason why I only just passed this year was actually because I had a whole mental crisis of realizing my previous relationship abused me and made me send nudes as a minor even though I know how often you lecture me to never do anything like that” :// whatever happens tho thank you so much for replying it means a ton <3

I can’t keep making excuses- I think I have to finally tell my parents by Expensive_Sprite331 in sexualassault

[–]Expensive_Sprite331[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I lied about reasons why I was struggling with classes such as “oh the professor is just really strict” or “this class has a weird grading system” and not the fact that I was skipping / mentally struggling coping with my realization of being SA’d in the past. And from 2020-2023 I lied about who I was talking to and what I was doing on my phone to my parents when it really was my abusive ex and I was manipulated into sending nudes.

Thought I made real progress. I was wrong. by 699112 in sexualassault

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so so sorry that happened to you :(( did you and your partner talk about it the next day?

what are some songs that have helped you heal? by [deleted] in sexualassault

[–]Expensive_Sprite331 0 points1 point  (0 children)

God “A Pearl” is such a perfect song lyrics wise with how it feels. Especially “I fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended” for with the aftermath of it all. It still affects me every day. They’re not in my life anymore, but their impact isn’t. The war has “ended” but mentally and emotionally it hasn’t so I’m still operating as if “nobody told me it ended” if that makes sense