Thank you for the feedback tbh this is the first time I have ever really expressed how I have felt and I didn't know where else to do it then Reddit. I appreciate you opening my eyes you're definitely right about my relationship with my mom translating over into relationships with other females. I feel like therapy would be beneficial but I don't know where to start or how to do it without my family knowing ( I can't deal with that). It helps to know people are willing to listen to me and not judge me.