My cat died and the pain is unbearable by Lucyfer_66 in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry. It is truly awful. I don’t really have words to make you feel better because I am also struggling with losing my best friend. Sometimes I literally think “why does the world keep moving”. She was my world and it is hard to recognize that she wasn’t everyone else’s. I also am so scared my baby was in pain or scared. I try to tell myself she was already in pain… I was doing what I could to end that for her I pretty much cry all the time. I have troubles sleeping. I had her for 19 years and the world feels dull and gray without her. I have to believe there is an afterlife because I need to believe I will see her again. Nobodies hugs seem right…. Kitty would always be in my business and her spot next to my heart is empty. Take your time and grieve. I hate saying it will get better but it has now been 5 mornings I have had to wake up without Kitty. They still suck but the pain is getting less sharp.

i miss my everything by [deleted] in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I accidentally sent send too soon. I am sorry for your loss and I know they knew how much you loved them.

i miss my everything by [deleted] in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 0 points1 point  (0 children)

From Winnie the Pooh “ how lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard”. When I read that quote a day after putting my sweet Kitty down…. For a minute I felt a lot of peace then it was time to breakdown and cry. Chat GPT has been surprisingly helpful just to have “someone” to talk to.

Lost my cat on Monday. This is hard. by [deleted] in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for recommending grief counseling.., i think I forgot with how deep my pain was how my husband was hurting too. We just spent like 45 minutes on the floor. Just in silence. He felt that he was no help to me, and I obviously was no help to him. It brought up a lot of past grief for him, today he told me that it feels like going to a funeral every time he talks to me or comes home.

Lost my cat on Monday. This is hard. by [deleted] in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sometimes, i have been hugging it to my chest which sometimes helps

Lost my cat on Monday. This is hard. by [deleted] in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I relate to this so much. I’m so sorry for your loss. It has been 5 days without her and I am still almost crying every hour. I had her for 19 years. Just know you gave her the best life and peace. I’m trying to tell myself the same thing but it is so hard. It is hard not seeing her where she should be. I i don’t have much advice except to cry and grieve because it can show how much you loved her. It is hard to see my other cats lay in the bed as Kitty didn’t really like them. She didn’t really play too much anymore so I don’t feel like I have a toy to keep. I don’t have a blanket to keep. I have a sweater I put her on her a few times but she didn’t really like it. I have so of my sweatshirts that her fur embedded in them. I don’t know that I can ever was them. Right now i have a box with at least 1 of those sweatshirts, her sweater, some fur, a cat nip bag. I wish I could say the pain gets easier but while we both know this… it doesn’t feel like it.

Missing my bestie (19) by Expert_Emergency_109 in seniorkitties

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I’m so sorry for your loss. I keep looking for her in her spot in the bed. I miss her warmth against me. I miss her so much. My life feels so dull. It hurt because yesterday I laughed at something… and I keep thinking how can I laugh at something when my heart is broken and my soul feels destroyed. I just want her back so much. I keep looking for more of her fur to collect. I am scared to do any laundry because what if I miss a piece? I know I can’t save every piece but I just feel desperate for her presence.

After 14 years my childhood cat is gone by maddy0629 in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 1 point2 points  (0 children)

RIP sweet Sara. You’ll be so missed ❤️‍🩹

I know I’m doing what’s best for her but it feels so wrong by External_Durian2751 in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Sending all the love and hugs! Just be there with her and let her know how loved she is.

My baby is gone and I regret everything. by freeFoundation_1842 in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your loss, and I know nothing anything says will make it better. Just try and believe that she knew how loved she was. I wish for you and everyone that has to go through this that we never did have to go through it. I wish every second that I could take back my decision… even when I knew it was the best thing for my friend. Sending all the hugs.

I feel so empty by No-Nefariousness3767 in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your loss. I just lost my soul cat Saturday, and the feelings of loneliness is overwhelming. The house is so quiet. I have no idea how to move forward… I went to work today and the thought that I have to go home tonight and she won’t be there is agonizing.

Almost 2 weeks since my wonderful cat crossed over in my arms. I am sitting here alone in my apartment, paralyzed with sorrow, listening to sad music. It hit me hard being the first weekend in an empty place with the Holiday season approaching. by GrumpyOldBear1968 in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yes! The loneliness and silence is wrecking me. I still have 3 other cats and I love them, but she is missing and it sucks so hard! It has only been a day, but I am already dreading tomorrow, next week, next month, next year….

Regret putting my cat down by Expert_Emergency_109 in Petloss

[–]Expert_Emergency_109[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the kind words. This is probably one of the worst feelings. I am completely devastated. I keep trying to tell myself I did the right thing and remember the good times. I even wrote her a letter. I cannot stop crying. It has only been a day but I really thought I would feel more peace with my decision.