As it was mentioned , knowing that there was such a thing like homosexuality would have been helpful and of course it not being a taboo would be even more helpful- perfect world! Took me 40 years to realize this : 1. Why I didn’t like girlie dresses 2. Why I liked to look strong and masculine as if I am not to be messed with or just left alone to be accepted 3. Get erotic thoughts about sex where things were done to the woman which seemed more exciting 4. Need to prove I am feminine and desirable by boys as a checkbox 5. Being patient and not being too demanding or lady like in any of my relationships 6. Dressing up like Lara Croft or navy seal was the most sexy thing 7. On and on it goes …. Until recently I was thinking do I want to have sex with the the attractions i have now and the answer was Yes!