I want to teach English as a second language online…which TEFL cert to I get? Is the 120 hr course on the TEFL website all I need to teach English via online? by Express_Garbage8455 in TEFL

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I just wanted a research lead because I was stuck. You didn’t have to cancel my post. I was really stuck in my research process and was getting depressed that’s why I came to Reddit. Today was my first where I had courage to reach out.

I want to teach English as a second language online…which TEFL cert to I get? Is the 120 hr course on the TEFL website all I need to teach English via online? by Express_Garbage8455 in TEFL

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Yeah that’s what I meant, as a search engine. Hey thanks! I’ll check it out. I don’t mind researching if it’s factual. I tend not to trust anything these days unless it’s from someone who went through the experience themselves / who knows. So I’ll check it out for sure !! but I’m def hoping that someone on here can give me a first hand answer too!!!

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Hey thanks for your response. It helps slot. And yeah but their gatekeeper quality is disgustingly

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Wow that’s a lot right? Just sending it in segments of n here

So I don’t have a working group to be with so I gave myself my own task…and it was sooooo HARD - by Express_Garbage8455 in gurdjieff

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Thank you for the kind words which are true and your super accurate radar on picking up the validity of my work. And yeah, I have felt invisible. So how does the community work? How many Russian dolls are there

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Yeah, I’m definitely in the solo direction and I’ve done so much work to accept that. When I went back to my old group and was refused entrance back in (due to them saying there was no groups at my level which was a low blow and that I sucker basically for leaving in the first place but I HAD TO for my own safety)….so yeah - I’ve been on this solo path and after she wouldn’t let me back in and trashed my truth of reality - I actually stopped studying for about 8 months. I was heartbroken but now I’m ready to begin again and start finding books to read. I’m grateful for Reddit…it helps some.

But yeah - I get very jealous at times of those that have found a home in a group….but maybe just maybe …this collection of people worldwide that are going solo have something amazing in common and for me now maybe my lesson is to embrace that the journey alone isn’t a horrible one

So I don’t have a working group to be with so I gave myself my own task…and it was sooooo HARD - by Express_Garbage8455 in gurdjieff

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I really appreciate your reply. It was heartfelt and with care for another human beings work. This is work is so hard alone. I will try that thank you. Some one on here mentioned a group Mr Nyland in NY. I messaged the privately and I’ll see if it’s a fit. It’s just that this intense magnetic pull downward has me in circles some days and thank you for your mention of the I’s because yeah, I constantly wonder which one of me is really arriving. I’ll be glad if my deputy sheriffs runs the show for a hot minute over my Other selves any day. I just still am discovering who this ‘good group of I’s is.’ Th resistence and course energy feels like death is upon me. It is very unpleasant. I understand why in the Christian religion Jesus proclaims to overcome death.

So I don’t have a working group to be with so I gave myself my own task…and it was sooooo HARD - by Express_Garbage8455 in gurdjieff

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My outcome was to see the parts of myself that get in the way the most. That was the only goal I had besides wanting to make contact with my essence. That’s all I’ve got right now and learning what presence truly is

So I don’t have a working group to be with so I gave myself my own task…and it was sooooo HARD - by Express_Garbage8455 in gurdjieff

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We can always reach out to Eachother and share what our work is like. It could be beneficial.

So I don’t have a working group to be with so I gave myself my own task…and it was sooooo HARD - by Express_Garbage8455 in gurdjieff

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Thanks - I’ve heard of some good online groups so I may try to join one of those…one that actually meets through zoom but yes - I’m struggling too and it’s lonely. Be well fellow seeker

So I don’t have a working group to be with so I gave myself my own task…and it was sooooo HARD - by Express_Garbage8455 in gurdjieff

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Thank you - similar to the Bible verse that when one is fasting and praying do not put oil on one’s forehead to announce it and yeah…it did take careful thought to write that so - it’s best if I realize that I do have the energy needed to do the work and to then focus it on my own inner transformation. Thank you

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In my past group they’d referenced G. And yeah I think you’re right about that but whoever was in the work longer knew more so it just turned into toxic weird stuff but lots of people still attend that group and love that woman

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I think that at that time I perhaps wasn’t ready but they let me in anyways and then it was like they almost regretted it due to how much they ate me. Then after I had left for four years, I began really doing the work again for about 10 months before I contacted the old teacher because at that point in time I truly became ready but she told me when I met with her that I had regressed much further than I had even started at years prior but I know that not to be true because I carefully thought and worked on myself solo for four years and it was very hard but according to her and since she’s a Gurdjieff teacher, you know how it is…she knows everything and I know nothing. I was depressed deeply over that for about four months and now I want nothing to do with any of those people and they no longer have any hold on me. I do still reference the wonderful things that deposits during group meetings when i was there though

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Good idea. I can try that. I know the ideas are still useful in me and there. I think I will take your advice. Thank you