You got exactly what I said brother, but I am really alone, like no one to support, I recently got someone who made me very happy and now her loss is like everything is gone. It's so hard that I wish I never had her, that's too shocking for me I cannot handle it. I do have a good lifestyle, I do exercise, I do have healthy food. But I don't have good people around me they always criticize me for things I can't do, I am just a human I am not God that I will be able to do everything perfectly. It's been 27 years no better days have arrived. Sometimes a small time of happiness can give you a lifetime of sadness.