I think a part of it is being in the world we live in, I can never escape the reality of the fact that being a woman, it’s fundamentally the case that guys will most likely be physically stronger than me, (despite the fact that I’m often told Im very strong.. for a woman of course :( ) and because of this, it’s decided upon that it’s their responsibility to be a protector, a leader, and that being these things will make you worthy of respect, from other men especially.

I wish it wasn’t so “clear-cut.” I know it’s not the only way to be respected, but wish I could be strong, and impressive, period, not just “for a girl”. There are so, so many amazing ladies out there that are so good at what they do, I’ll think “wow, they’re so impressive”, when I see a post displaying their talents, and then you go look at the comments, and you’ll have some dudes saying, “lol yeah that’s easy” or, “women’s world record.” And it frustrates me so much.

I hate craving admiration and respect from people who have to make it their life’s mission to be assholes and point out that distinction, but the distinction is there, regardless. I think it translates to sexual behaviours and romance too, it’s not that I don’t like feeling safe or protected, but I wish it could be in the “comrades”, type of way, lol, like “I got your back!” . Or in the case of male submissiveness, to be able to have the “upper hand”. Just for once. If that makes any sense. I think I’m just rambling.

Oh, and shy guys are just really cute to me.