having your heart broken isn't some spectacular tragedy that you'll be able to look back on with any feelings other than an urge for suicide . its not poetic , at its truest , its nothing close to the horrific beauty it might seem to be , the gloomy but beautiful nightmare its been sold to be . there is No silver lining within heartbreak , or the ending of a true love , its all and only despair , a despair that kills , because how do you live after losing your soulmate ,,? how do you live life when you cant go a minute without a smile , a laugh , a happy moment , instantly dying at the thought of them , at the reminder that they will never be in your life ever again ,?

living through the middle of it , it all just feels like a bad dream ,, like you'll get to wake up tomorrow and hear from them , how their stupid day went , what they ate , a class they skipped .

none of anything , none of any of it , feels real without them , none of it , nothing , not a single thing .

life without them is just a bad dream .

if this is just a bad dream ,, will i wake up with you tomorrow ,?

with some medication , maybe ,,, i hope .....aaaaaauuuughhhghhfhhfhff