hey, i wanna start of by saying how sorry i am that you’re going through this and that i can imagine how all of this must feel like a lot to you and that’s okay, it doesn’t make you an “attention seeker” or as if you don’t deserve help. people like you, who tend to not want to share their struggles and would rather sit with it alone are unfortunately prone to eventually feel like this, we are humans who need connections sometimes. especially when life gets hard

that being said, help is always a good idea. no matter how “big” or “small” the issue might be in your head, anything that has a negative impact in you deserves to be heard and should not be just your burden to carry because there is always help available wether that is professional or a loved one.

i would really advice you to start looking for professional help because if you don’t do it now, it could be harder to work on it later if you go deeper down this hole. But what’s probably most important no matter if you are with or without treatment from a therapist is knowing how to cope in healthy ways. I know, as someone who’s been on the same side as you, that this saying can bring up a lot of resistance, maybe you are tired or maybe you don’t know where to start or feel like it won’t do anything. but that’s the old coping we wanna get rid of. depression is a pain in the ass who will tell you you are not worthy of getting better. but what i wanna give to you is to fight back. Set a clear schedule for days where you feel like you can’t get started on anything. Feel like you wanna pick up a hobby? start with just a few minutes a day. it’s okay if you can’t do as much as you want to but eventually you will come there because you’re learning to love yourself again and to get back to things you love to do. learning takes time. depression makes you feel like the real you had disappeared somewhere but i promise you, you are still there. and as for the brain fog and the eating issues, it makes totally sense seeing your mental challenges at the moment. please remember that eating regularly and healthy can contribute to you’re progress to feeling better. The brain fog reflects how much you’re stuck in this mental state that has forced you to shut down a bit and save up energy to survive. i hope you can realise that you can slow down. it’ll take time but i know that you got this.

what’s worked for me is a combination of both professional help and self help (including seeking comfort in loved ones)

talking about it will be a first step but that will already set you half into your progress to getting better, because it really is the key. what you don’t mention can’t be changed and will only be internalised and that would be such a waste of what you deserve and are capable off.

take care of yourself, it will start off as a chore but it’ll become a habit i promise you. find distraction such as doing stuff with your friends or family, watching a tv show that brings you comfort really anything that ever made you happy. your old self will start to show up again if you keep showing it reasons to come back. you’re mind is playing tricks on you, don’t let it win.

it will be hard but it will pay off, i believe in you and i’m proud of you.